THIS HAS BEEN A GREAT CHRISTMAS. MY GIRLS GOT EVERYTHING THEY WANTED AND THEY HAVE BEEN PLAYING HARD ALL DAY. THIS CHRISTMAS HAS ALSO BEEN A VERY EMOTIONAL ONE FOR ME. LASTNIGHT ONCE SANTA HAD EVERYTHING SET UP, I BROKE DOWN AND I DONT MEAN A LITTLE CRYING, I WAS SOBBING, COULDNT CATCH MY BREATH. THANK GOD EVERYONE WAS ASLEEP. I JUST NEEDED TO DO THAT B/C I WAS LOOKING AROUND AT ALL THEY HAD AND I WAS SO THANKFUL. GREG AND I HAVE AN AMAZING FAMILY, IS ALL I CAN SAY. THANK YOU VERY MUCH IF YOU ARE READING THIS. GREG ASK ME THE OTHER DAY WOULD I TAKE BACK EVER BEING MARRIED TO HIM. I SAID ABSOLUTELY NOT.. HE SAID MAYBE YOU WOULDNT BE IN THIS SITUATION IF YOU HADENT MET ME. I STARTED TO CRY AGAIN AND I SAID, WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER AND WE WILL GET OUT OF IT TOGETHER. I LOVE HIM AND MY GIRLS WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE..
THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS ARE GOING TO BE HARD FOR ME, I HAVE A LOT OF DECISIONS TO MAKE ON OUR FAMILY. I DONT KNOW IF I AM GOING LEFT OR RIGHT SOMETIMES, STRESS IS A WITCH WITH A CAPITAL W, IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I GOT ANOTHER CALL ABOUT A JOB THE OTHER DAY, ROTATING DAYS, WORK LIKE 4 DAYS BE OFF 3 THEN BE OFF LIKE 4 AND WORK 3, BUT HOURS ARE 8 TO 7 DURING THE WEEK AND NOT SO SURE ABOUT WEEKEND. WELL GUESS WHAT, I CAN'T DO THAT EITHER B/C IT ISNT PART TIME. I BELIEVE GOD IS PLAYING A FUNNY JOKE ON ME. NO I AM JUST KIDDING. HE IS SENDING ME SIGNS THAT I NEED TO WORK, AND I KEEP TELLING HIM I CAN'T BECAUSE MY GIRLS ARE MY WORLD AND DAYCARE WANT WORK FOR US. WHAT IS A FAMILY SUPPOSE TO DO.. I AM JUST SO READY TO SALE THE HOUSE, THE CAR, AND WHATEVER ELSE WE CAN AND START OVER. WE ARE YOUNG, WE CAN BUY A HOUSE WHEN I CAN GO BACK TO WORK BUT THEN I THINK ABOUT APARTMENT LIVING AND THAT IS NOT A LIFE FOR MY GIRLS WHO ARE USE TO RUNNING AND PLAYING IN THERE YARD AND ALL IN THE STREET B/C OUR NEIGHBORS ARE GREAT AND THEY WATCH OUT FOR ALL THE KIDS. I KNOW I CAN'T HAVE MY CAKE AND EAT IT TO. SOMETIMES I WISH MY FAIRY GOD MOTHER WOULD GRANT ME 3 WISHES:
1. CURE FOR CYSTIC FIBROSIS
2. FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS
3. TO HAVE NO DEBT. JUST WIPE IT OUT. MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL, BOY I CAN SAY GREG AND I HAVE LEARNED THAT LESSON. ITS HARD TO NOT WANT TO BUY SOMETHING NICE WHEN ALL WE DO IS STAY AT HOME.
I HAVE HAD TO PUT ON MY BIG GIRL PANTS AND DO A LOT OF PRAYING AND CRYING. DONT FEEL SORRY FOR ME. IT WAS FUNNY THE OTHER DAY I RAN INTO SOMEONE AT OLD NAVY B/C THE GIRLS NEEDED SOMETHING FOR THE CHRISTMAS PROGRAM, THEY ARE FRIENDS WITH ME ON FACEBOOK. THEY LOOKED AT ME LIKE OMG, I KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER. REALLY WE ARE GOING TO BE FINE. JUST A LOT OF WORRIES RIGHT NOW AND CONCERNS. DOING EVERYTHING WE CAN TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT. I AM STILL THE SAME PERSON, MAYBE JUST A LITTLE MORE CAUTIOUS...
LORD, THANK YOU FOR THE WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS WE HAD AND FOR TAKING CARE OF US AND LETTING US GET THROUGH THIS WITH OUR GREAT FAMILY. OH AND THANK YOU FOR THE WHITE CHRISTMAS. AMAZING!!!! EVERYONE LOVE YOUR LITTLE ONES TIGHT.. GOD THE NEXT FEW WEEKS, I NEED YOU TO SHOW ME THE WAY.. THE JOB CALLS, I UNDERSTAND THAT IS WHAT I NEED TO DO, BUT I CAN'T. SO GOD CAN YOU SEND ME ANOTHER SIGN, ONE THAT WORKS FOR US RIGHT NOW. I PROMISE WHEN I GET PNUT IN SCHOOL, WORKING IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO. MAYBE GREG CAN STAY HOME AND RELAX A LITTLE ONCE I DO GO BACK. LORD YOU ARE AWESOME IN SO MANY WAYS. YOU SHOW ME EVERYDAY. CHURCH HAS BEEN CANCELLED FOR TOMORROW B/C THE SNOW, BUT I AM SURE GOING TO MISS IT. IT ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL GOOD.
EVERYONE HAVE AN AMAZING CHRISTMAS!!! LOVE TO ALL OF YOU.
MARTIE T.
ME AND MY GIRLS
THE LOVES OF MY LIFE
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
TIS THE SEASON TO LOVE
SITTING HERE WITH MY HUBBY, WHILE THE GIRLS ARE HOPEFULLY IN BED. IT IS ALMOST THAT TIME AGAIN AND I CANT GET EVERYTHING DONE. IT IS TO COLD TO TAKE THE GIRLS OUT AND FINISH WHAT I NEED TO DO, AND TO COLD FOR ME TO GO OUT AND SHOP.
TRINITY IS FEELING GOOD, HOPEFULLY WE CONTINUE WITH THIS AND PYPER IS, I DON'T KNOW. SHE HAS CRIED A LOT TODAY AND SHE IS JUST ILL. I REALLY DON'T THINK SHE HAS EVER GOT BETTER FROM THEM SAYING SHE HAS ASTHMA. SHE STILL TELLS ME HER CHEST HURTS. I LISTEN AND DON'T HEAR ANYTHING, SO I GUESS THAT IS A GOOD THING BUT STILL WORRIED ABOUT HER. I WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN IT IS 75 DEGREES AND WARM. SPRING TIME CAN'T GET HERE FAST ENOUGH. I REALLY WOULD LOVE TO MOVE TO THE BEACH AND BE AROUND SALT WATER ALL DAY. MY GIRLS DO SO GOOD WHEN WE ARE AT THE BEACH.
I HAVE BEEN ILL AND KINDA DEPRESSED HERE LATELY, AND TALKING A LOT TO GOD.. DO ANY OF YOU EVER ASK HIM, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?? LIKE I SAID ONE DAY IN MY POST, I NEED TO SIT ON SANTA'S LAP AND ASK HIM, FOR THE ONE GIFT I WANT SO BAD. I NEED 2 MORE YEARS AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS... THAT WAY THEY GET EVERYTHING THEY NEED AND I KNOW THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF. DAYCARE IS NO OPTION FOR US...
I WANT ALL OF YOU TO THINK ABOUT CHRISTMAS AND WHAT IT MEANS TO YOU. TO ME, IT MEANS BEING WITH MY FAMILY.. MY GIRLS AND HUSBAND ARE MY WORLD.. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF MY HUSBAND EVEN KNOWS WHAT HE MEANS TO ME. WHAT I SACRIFICE FOR HIM, AND FOR OUR GIRLS. WOULD I CHANGE ANY OF IT, NO I WOULDNT BUT SOMETIMES I WONDER. I STAY AT HOME, I CLEAN, I COOK, I DO TREATMENTS, VEST, WASH NEBULIZERS, GIVE MEDICINES, VITAMINS, FOOD, ETC, ETC, ETC. TO ME, THIS IS MY JOB, MY 7 TO WHATEVER TIME I FINALLY CRASH JOB AND I LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT, EVERY SECOND OF IT. DO I COMPLAIN SOMETIMES, MY GOD YES, WHO DOESNT. MY HUSBAND SAYS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK FOR ME, IS THE GROCERYSTORE, THAT IS MY OUT.. I AM AT THE STORE FOR 30 MINUTES AND I MISS THEM SO MUCH, THAT I RUSH HOME JUST TO HEAR THEM FIGHTING. THAT IS LOVE, I MUST SAY. THEY ARE MY MONSTERS.....
REMEMBER TO SPEND AS MUCH TIME WITH YOUR LOVED ONES, AND TO LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY.. CHRISTMAS ISNT THE TIME FOR GIVING BUT THE TIME TO SPEND WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A FIRST FOR ME, I COULDNT BUY EVERYTHING I WANTED TO, AND I GOT TO DO A LOT OF WINDOW SHOPPING. I DID OK, BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT WAS A DOWNER... I AM MAKING SACRIFICES FOR US, FOR THIS FAMILY AND SO IS GREG AND SO ARE MY GIRLS BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE, WE WILL NEVER SACRIFICE ANYTHING THAT OUR GIRLS NEED. THEY COME FIRST IN THIS HOUSE AND ALWAYS WILL....
GOT TO GO BECAUSE LITTLE PYPER IS CRYING.. SHE FEELS MOMMA SHOULDNT HAVE AN OUT, THAT MY WORLD HAS TO STOP FOR HER. LOL
TIS THE SEASON TO LOVE,
MARTIE T.
TRINITY IS FEELING GOOD, HOPEFULLY WE CONTINUE WITH THIS AND PYPER IS, I DON'T KNOW. SHE HAS CRIED A LOT TODAY AND SHE IS JUST ILL. I REALLY DON'T THINK SHE HAS EVER GOT BETTER FROM THEM SAYING SHE HAS ASTHMA. SHE STILL TELLS ME HER CHEST HURTS. I LISTEN AND DON'T HEAR ANYTHING, SO I GUESS THAT IS A GOOD THING BUT STILL WORRIED ABOUT HER. I WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN IT IS 75 DEGREES AND WARM. SPRING TIME CAN'T GET HERE FAST ENOUGH. I REALLY WOULD LOVE TO MOVE TO THE BEACH AND BE AROUND SALT WATER ALL DAY. MY GIRLS DO SO GOOD WHEN WE ARE AT THE BEACH.
I HAVE BEEN ILL AND KINDA DEPRESSED HERE LATELY, AND TALKING A LOT TO GOD.. DO ANY OF YOU EVER ASK HIM, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?? LIKE I SAID ONE DAY IN MY POST, I NEED TO SIT ON SANTA'S LAP AND ASK HIM, FOR THE ONE GIFT I WANT SO BAD. I NEED 2 MORE YEARS AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS... THAT WAY THEY GET EVERYTHING THEY NEED AND I KNOW THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF. DAYCARE IS NO OPTION FOR US...
I WANT ALL OF YOU TO THINK ABOUT CHRISTMAS AND WHAT IT MEANS TO YOU. TO ME, IT MEANS BEING WITH MY FAMILY.. MY GIRLS AND HUSBAND ARE MY WORLD.. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF MY HUSBAND EVEN KNOWS WHAT HE MEANS TO ME. WHAT I SACRIFICE FOR HIM, AND FOR OUR GIRLS. WOULD I CHANGE ANY OF IT, NO I WOULDNT BUT SOMETIMES I WONDER. I STAY AT HOME, I CLEAN, I COOK, I DO TREATMENTS, VEST, WASH NEBULIZERS, GIVE MEDICINES, VITAMINS, FOOD, ETC, ETC, ETC. TO ME, THIS IS MY JOB, MY 7 TO WHATEVER TIME I FINALLY CRASH JOB AND I LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT, EVERY SECOND OF IT. DO I COMPLAIN SOMETIMES, MY GOD YES, WHO DOESNT. MY HUSBAND SAYS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK FOR ME, IS THE GROCERYSTORE, THAT IS MY OUT.. I AM AT THE STORE FOR 30 MINUTES AND I MISS THEM SO MUCH, THAT I RUSH HOME JUST TO HEAR THEM FIGHTING. THAT IS LOVE, I MUST SAY. THEY ARE MY MONSTERS.....
REMEMBER TO SPEND AS MUCH TIME WITH YOUR LOVED ONES, AND TO LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY.. CHRISTMAS ISNT THE TIME FOR GIVING BUT THE TIME TO SPEND WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A FIRST FOR ME, I COULDNT BUY EVERYTHING I WANTED TO, AND I GOT TO DO A LOT OF WINDOW SHOPPING. I DID OK, BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT WAS A DOWNER... I AM MAKING SACRIFICES FOR US, FOR THIS FAMILY AND SO IS GREG AND SO ARE MY GIRLS BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE, WE WILL NEVER SACRIFICE ANYTHING THAT OUR GIRLS NEED. THEY COME FIRST IN THIS HOUSE AND ALWAYS WILL....
GOT TO GO BECAUSE LITTLE PYPER IS CRYING.. SHE FEELS MOMMA SHOULDNT HAVE AN OUT, THAT MY WORLD HAS TO STOP FOR HER. LOL
TIS THE SEASON TO LOVE,
MARTIE T.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
THIS IS MY OUT, MY VOICE, MY FEELINGS....
THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS WITH MY HUBBY AND KIDS HAVE BEEN SO GOOD. LOVING MY LIFE... GOD IS GOOD. MY GIRLS ARE BREATHING EASY. PYPER HAS ASTHMA, SO WE HAVE TO CONTINUE BREATHING TREATMENTS ALL THROUGH THE WINTER.. PRAYING ONCE WINTER IS OVER SHE WILL BE BACK TO HER OLDSELF AGAIN, WITH NO WHEEZING AND NO COUGHING.. TRINITY IS DOING GREAT!!!!
IT IS CHRISTMAS TIME... THE KIDS ARE BOUGHT FOR AND THANK U GOD FOR THAT. IF NO ONE ELSE GETS ANYTHING, I AM SORRY, BUT WE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF OUR KIDS FIRST AND FORMOST. REMEMBER, CHRISTMAS IS NOT ABOUT GIVING, BUT TO ME IT IS ABOUT BEING WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE, AND THANKING GOD FOR ALL YOU HAVE... GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO THE TURNER'S. GOD I GIVE U ALL THE GLORY FOR EVERYTHING..
THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I QUESTIONED U GOD, WHY ME, WHY US, WHY MY GIRLS. I AM SORRY FOR THAT GOD... I DONT DO THAT ANYMORE. WE ARE FINE, MY GIRLS ARE FINE, THE TURNER'S ARE FINE AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS YOU GOD....
THE ONLY PROBLEM WE HAVE NOW, IS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO KEEP ME HOME FOR 2 MORE YEARS WITH PYPER.. THE REASON WE ARE IN THE SITUATION WE ARE IN IS B/C OF STUPID MISTAKES WE MADE, STUPID PURCHASES, IMPULSE BUYING.. HAVE WE LEARNED FROM OUR MISTAKES, YES WE HAVE, BUT HOW DO YOU FIX IT ON ONE INCOME, ONE INCOME WITH 3 PEOPLE WHO HAVE DISEASES THAT COST A BUNDLE. I DONT KNOW IF THERE IS A WAY, BUT WE ARE TRYING LORD.. JUST KNOW, WE ARE TRYING. I KNOW MY POST SEEM LIKE I AM ALWAYS TALKING TO GOD, AND I PROBABLY AM... THIS IS MY OUT, MY VOICE, MY FEELINGS... I DO BETTER WRITING OR TYPING THINGS DOWN. GREG AND I HAVE TALKED ABOUT SELLING OUR CAR, SELLING THE HOUSE, BUT WHY?? DO I WANT TO PUT MY KIDS IN AN APARTMENT, THAT I DONT KNOW IF IT IS CLEAN OR WHO LIVED THERE BEFORE ME, AND WHY DO I WANT TO SALE MY CAR, AND JUST START OVER WITH ANOTHER ONE. WE HAVE TO HAVE 2 CARS. A LOT OF OUR PROBLEM IS BIG CAR PAYMENTS. I USE TO HAVE A WEAKNESS FOR A NEW CAR, AND SO DID MY HUSBAND. THE 2 OF US TOGETHER, WAS NOT GOOD WHEN WE WANTED A CAR. IF I GET TO KEEP THESE TWO, WE ARE KEEPING THEM UNTIL THE DOORS FALL OFF OF THEM... MY HUBBY HAS CAR OR SHOULD I SAY TRUCK FEVER NOW, I TOLD HIM, NO WAY!!!!!
THE TURNER'S ARE TRYING.. MY MOTHER IN LAW HAS DONE HER DEED HELPING US. SHE IS TIRED AND THE THINGS THAT THESE TWO NEED ARE SO MUCH AND IT IS HARD FOR ONE PERSON TO HANDLE IT. I KNOW I COULD PUT THEM IN DAYCARE, BUT DR. ASHE DOESNT FEEL THAT IS A GOOD IDEA AND GREG AND I DONT EITHER. ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO WORK, BUT FOR NOW, MY GIRLS NEED ME... WHEN YOU BECOME A PARENT, YOU CHANGE. I CHANGED SO MUCH AFTER HAVING MY TWO BABIES. I ALWAYS SAID I WOULDNT STAY AT HOME, I WOULDNT BREASTFEED. BOY, THAT WAS A LIE. I WOULD DIE FOR THEM RIGHT NOW, AT THIS VERY SECOND IF I HAD SOMETHING IN MY BODY THAT WOULD MAKE THEM BETTER, I WOULD GIVE THEM THE WORLD. I WENT FROM WEARING NICE NAME BRAND CLOTHES, TO WEARING TARGET OR WALMART STUFF, SO MY KIDS COULD HAVE MORE. THE THINGS U DO FOR YOUR KIDS... WOULD I CHANGE ANYTHING I HAVE DONE, YES BUT THAT IS ONE THING. THAT ONE THING IS, I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OUT, WHAT I SPENT MY MONEY ON, WHAT I REALLY NEEDED.. WE WOULDNT BE IN THE BOAT WE ARE IN NOW... THE TURNER'S ARE FIGHTING, WE ARE GOING TO WIN. GOD, STAY WITH US THROUGH THIS, DONT LEAVE US. WE NEED U MORE NOW, THAN EVER...
ONE FAMILY PRAYING FOR THINGS TO WORK OUT!!!!
MARTIE T.
IT IS CHRISTMAS TIME... THE KIDS ARE BOUGHT FOR AND THANK U GOD FOR THAT. IF NO ONE ELSE GETS ANYTHING, I AM SORRY, BUT WE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF OUR KIDS FIRST AND FORMOST. REMEMBER, CHRISTMAS IS NOT ABOUT GIVING, BUT TO ME IT IS ABOUT BEING WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE, AND THANKING GOD FOR ALL YOU HAVE... GOD HAS BEEN GOOD TO THE TURNER'S. GOD I GIVE U ALL THE GLORY FOR EVERYTHING..
THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I QUESTIONED U GOD, WHY ME, WHY US, WHY MY GIRLS. I AM SORRY FOR THAT GOD... I DONT DO THAT ANYMORE. WE ARE FINE, MY GIRLS ARE FINE, THE TURNER'S ARE FINE AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS YOU GOD....
THE ONLY PROBLEM WE HAVE NOW, IS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO KEEP ME HOME FOR 2 MORE YEARS WITH PYPER.. THE REASON WE ARE IN THE SITUATION WE ARE IN IS B/C OF STUPID MISTAKES WE MADE, STUPID PURCHASES, IMPULSE BUYING.. HAVE WE LEARNED FROM OUR MISTAKES, YES WE HAVE, BUT HOW DO YOU FIX IT ON ONE INCOME, ONE INCOME WITH 3 PEOPLE WHO HAVE DISEASES THAT COST A BUNDLE. I DONT KNOW IF THERE IS A WAY, BUT WE ARE TRYING LORD.. JUST KNOW, WE ARE TRYING. I KNOW MY POST SEEM LIKE I AM ALWAYS TALKING TO GOD, AND I PROBABLY AM... THIS IS MY OUT, MY VOICE, MY FEELINGS... I DO BETTER WRITING OR TYPING THINGS DOWN. GREG AND I HAVE TALKED ABOUT SELLING OUR CAR, SELLING THE HOUSE, BUT WHY?? DO I WANT TO PUT MY KIDS IN AN APARTMENT, THAT I DONT KNOW IF IT IS CLEAN OR WHO LIVED THERE BEFORE ME, AND WHY DO I WANT TO SALE MY CAR, AND JUST START OVER WITH ANOTHER ONE. WE HAVE TO HAVE 2 CARS. A LOT OF OUR PROBLEM IS BIG CAR PAYMENTS. I USE TO HAVE A WEAKNESS FOR A NEW CAR, AND SO DID MY HUSBAND. THE 2 OF US TOGETHER, WAS NOT GOOD WHEN WE WANTED A CAR. IF I GET TO KEEP THESE TWO, WE ARE KEEPING THEM UNTIL THE DOORS FALL OFF OF THEM... MY HUBBY HAS CAR OR SHOULD I SAY TRUCK FEVER NOW, I TOLD HIM, NO WAY!!!!!
THE TURNER'S ARE TRYING.. MY MOTHER IN LAW HAS DONE HER DEED HELPING US. SHE IS TIRED AND THE THINGS THAT THESE TWO NEED ARE SO MUCH AND IT IS HARD FOR ONE PERSON TO HANDLE IT. I KNOW I COULD PUT THEM IN DAYCARE, BUT DR. ASHE DOESNT FEEL THAT IS A GOOD IDEA AND GREG AND I DONT EITHER. ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO WORK, BUT FOR NOW, MY GIRLS NEED ME... WHEN YOU BECOME A PARENT, YOU CHANGE. I CHANGED SO MUCH AFTER HAVING MY TWO BABIES. I ALWAYS SAID I WOULDNT STAY AT HOME, I WOULDNT BREASTFEED. BOY, THAT WAS A LIE. I WOULD DIE FOR THEM RIGHT NOW, AT THIS VERY SECOND IF I HAD SOMETHING IN MY BODY THAT WOULD MAKE THEM BETTER, I WOULD GIVE THEM THE WORLD. I WENT FROM WEARING NICE NAME BRAND CLOTHES, TO WEARING TARGET OR WALMART STUFF, SO MY KIDS COULD HAVE MORE. THE THINGS U DO FOR YOUR KIDS... WOULD I CHANGE ANYTHING I HAVE DONE, YES BUT THAT IS ONE THING. THAT ONE THING IS, I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OUT, WHAT I SPENT MY MONEY ON, WHAT I REALLY NEEDED.. WE WOULDNT BE IN THE BOAT WE ARE IN NOW... THE TURNER'S ARE FIGHTING, WE ARE GOING TO WIN. GOD, STAY WITH US THROUGH THIS, DONT LEAVE US. WE NEED U MORE NOW, THAN EVER...
ONE FAMILY PRAYING FOR THINGS TO WORK OUT!!!!
MARTIE T.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
GOD IS WORKING IN SUCH A POWERFUL WAY!!!!
YESTERDAY, I WENT TO CHECK THE MAIL, WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE START OF OUR CHRISTMAS CARDS, I RIPPED IT OPEN AND THIS IS WHAT THE CARD SAID ?
WHAT IF YOU'D RATHER CATCH A FEW BREAKS ONCE IN AWHILE? IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK? AT SOME POINT, YOU'D THINK YOU'D BE ENTITLED TO A FREE PASS OR TWO: SKIP THIS CHALLENGE. AVOID THAT CRISIS. DELETE THOSE PROBLEMS. IT'S NOT THAT YOU'RE NOT STRONG OR THAT YOU DON'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO GET THROUGH THIS. YOU ARE, YOU DO, AND YOU WILL. BUT YOU'VE BUILT ENOUGH CHARACTER ALREADY, AND IT'S TIME FOR THINGS TO LIGHEN UP A LITTLE! I KNOW IT'S NOT REALLY MY CALL, BUT IF I WERE IN CHARGE OF LIFE'S WHEEL OF FURTUNE, YOU'D GET A FREE SPIN. AND I'D BE RIGHT THERE, CHEERING YOU ON!
I JUST CRIED.. I CALLED MY HUSBAND CRYING AND HE COULDNT UNDERSTAND A WORD I WAS SAYING. FRIENDS SENT THAT CARD AND WHAT THEY DID FOR US IS SIMPLE UNEXPLAINABLE. THE LAST 9 WEEKS, I HAVE BEEN CRYING SO MUCH, PRAYING SO MUCH, JUST TALKING TO GOD, TELLING HIM THAT I NEED TO BE HOME WITH OUR BABIES, ATLEAST FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER, PRAYING THAT WE WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE IT, PRAYING FOR MY HUBBY AND HIS JOB, PRAYING SO HARD FOR MY GIRLS TO BE HEALTHY, A CURE FOR CF. EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING, GOD IS WORKING SO STAND TO THE SIDE AND LET HIM DO HIS JOB. GOD, YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I AM SO GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE AND SO GREATFUL TO HAVE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES THAT LOVE US...
OUR CHRISTMAS TREE IS UP, IT IS TIME FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER AND MY GIRLS SEEM TO BE FEELING BETTER AND FOR THAT I AM SO HAPPY.. EVERYONE BE SURE THAT YOU ARE THANKFUL FOR SOMETHING.. GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND, KIDS, AND FAMILY. HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EACH OF YOU AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS.
EXTREMELY GREATFUL,
MARTIE T.
WHAT IF YOU'D RATHER CATCH A FEW BREAKS ONCE IN AWHILE? IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK? AT SOME POINT, YOU'D THINK YOU'D BE ENTITLED TO A FREE PASS OR TWO: SKIP THIS CHALLENGE. AVOID THAT CRISIS. DELETE THOSE PROBLEMS. IT'S NOT THAT YOU'RE NOT STRONG OR THAT YOU DON'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO GET THROUGH THIS. YOU ARE, YOU DO, AND YOU WILL. BUT YOU'VE BUILT ENOUGH CHARACTER ALREADY, AND IT'S TIME FOR THINGS TO LIGHEN UP A LITTLE! I KNOW IT'S NOT REALLY MY CALL, BUT IF I WERE IN CHARGE OF LIFE'S WHEEL OF FURTUNE, YOU'D GET A FREE SPIN. AND I'D BE RIGHT THERE, CHEERING YOU ON!
I JUST CRIED.. I CALLED MY HUSBAND CRYING AND HE COULDNT UNDERSTAND A WORD I WAS SAYING. FRIENDS SENT THAT CARD AND WHAT THEY DID FOR US IS SIMPLE UNEXPLAINABLE. THE LAST 9 WEEKS, I HAVE BEEN CRYING SO MUCH, PRAYING SO MUCH, JUST TALKING TO GOD, TELLING HIM THAT I NEED TO BE HOME WITH OUR BABIES, ATLEAST FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER, PRAYING THAT WE WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE IT, PRAYING FOR MY HUBBY AND HIS JOB, PRAYING SO HARD FOR MY GIRLS TO BE HEALTHY, A CURE FOR CF. EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING, GOD IS WORKING SO STAND TO THE SIDE AND LET HIM DO HIS JOB. GOD, YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I AM SO GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE AND SO GREATFUL TO HAVE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES THAT LOVE US...
OUR CHRISTMAS TREE IS UP, IT IS TIME FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER AND MY GIRLS SEEM TO BE FEELING BETTER AND FOR THAT I AM SO HAPPY.. EVERYONE BE SURE THAT YOU ARE THANKFUL FOR SOMETHING.. GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND, KIDS, AND FAMILY. HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EACH OF YOU AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS.
EXTREMELY GREATFUL,
MARTIE T.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
i am starting to stress out!!!!!
OK, MY BABIES HAVE BEEN SICK NOW FOR ALMOST 8 WEEKS NOW. I CAN USUALLY GET THEM BETTER IN JUST A FEW DAYS, SO THIS IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME. TOMORROW, WE ARE GOING TO SEE OUR PULMONOLOGIST- DR. ASHE AND PRAY HE SENDS US BACK HOME. THE THOUGHTS OF BEING PUT IN THE HOSPITAL AND LEAVING MY OTHER DAUGHTER BREAKS MY HEART. I AM PUTTING MY FAITH IN GODS HANDS AND WE ARE COMING HOME TOMORROW AND MY BABIES ARE GOING TO GET BETTER.
ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE ARE MY GIRLS, MY HUBBY IS THE FIRST. MY HEART AND SOUL IS THIS FAMILY AND TAKING CARE OF US. I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING SOMETHING WRONG B/C I CANT GET THEM BETTER. I AM A FIGHTER, AND I DONT LIKE LOSING AND I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING FOR MY GIRLS. IN THE LAST YEAR, I HAVE WATCHED A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY LOSE HIS BATTLE WITH CYSTIC FIBROSIS AT 7 YEARS OF AGE AND I HAVE BEEN READING POST ABOUT OTHERS WHO ARE NOT DOING GOOD. WHY? THIS DISEASE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE OR FAMILIES.
TODAY, I WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW, IT WAS FULL TIME, CANT DO FULL TIME B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME. I TALKED TO GOD THE OTHER DAY AND I ASK HIM WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING, THEN THE NEXT DAY, THIS JOB CALL. ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I GOT THREE JOB CALLS, AS SOON AS I WOULD TURN ONE DOWN, ANOTHER WOULD COME. I WAS TALKING TO GOD THEN. I THINK GOD HAS A JOB IN STORE FOR ME, AND MY HUSBAND AND ME JUST WANT ME HOME SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR BABIES. I HAVE PUT IN FOR TONS OF PART TIME JOBS AND NOT ONE CALL ON THOSE BUT A FULL TIME JOB, I AM GETTING CALLS LEFT AND RIGHT. WOW!!!!! I MISS WORKING, BUT MY GIRLS HEALTH AND WELL BEING MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING.
I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS, OUR FAMILY IS GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. I AM TAKING IT STEP BY STEP. RIGHT NOW, PYPER IS PLAYING HARD, RIDING HER PINK TRICYCLE IN THE HOUSE, SO I FEEL SHE IS DOING OK, JUST A BAD COUGH. I LIVE, I BREATHE, I EAT, I CRY, I STRUGGLE, I FIGHT FOR THIS FAMILY.
A MOTHERS FIGHTING TO KEEP HER GIRLS HEALTHY!!!!
MARTIE T.
ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE ARE MY GIRLS, MY HUBBY IS THE FIRST. MY HEART AND SOUL IS THIS FAMILY AND TAKING CARE OF US. I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING SOMETHING WRONG B/C I CANT GET THEM BETTER. I AM A FIGHTER, AND I DONT LIKE LOSING AND I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING FOR MY GIRLS. IN THE LAST YEAR, I HAVE WATCHED A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY LOSE HIS BATTLE WITH CYSTIC FIBROSIS AT 7 YEARS OF AGE AND I HAVE BEEN READING POST ABOUT OTHERS WHO ARE NOT DOING GOOD. WHY? THIS DISEASE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE OR FAMILIES.
TODAY, I WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW, IT WAS FULL TIME, CANT DO FULL TIME B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME. I TALKED TO GOD THE OTHER DAY AND I ASK HIM WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING, THEN THE NEXT DAY, THIS JOB CALL. ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I GOT THREE JOB CALLS, AS SOON AS I WOULD TURN ONE DOWN, ANOTHER WOULD COME. I WAS TALKING TO GOD THEN. I THINK GOD HAS A JOB IN STORE FOR ME, AND MY HUSBAND AND ME JUST WANT ME HOME SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR BABIES. I HAVE PUT IN FOR TONS OF PART TIME JOBS AND NOT ONE CALL ON THOSE BUT A FULL TIME JOB, I AM GETTING CALLS LEFT AND RIGHT. WOW!!!!! I MISS WORKING, BUT MY GIRLS HEALTH AND WELL BEING MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING.
I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS, OUR FAMILY IS GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. I AM TAKING IT STEP BY STEP. RIGHT NOW, PYPER IS PLAYING HARD, RIDING HER PINK TRICYCLE IN THE HOUSE, SO I FEEL SHE IS DOING OK, JUST A BAD COUGH. I LIVE, I BREATHE, I EAT, I CRY, I STRUGGLE, I FIGHT FOR THIS FAMILY.
A MOTHERS FIGHTING TO KEEP HER GIRLS HEALTHY!!!!
MARTIE T.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
MY BABIES ARE SICK, AND I CANT SEEM TO MAKE THEM BETTER!!!!!
WELL MY BABIES ARE SICK AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I FEEL LIKE I CANT GET THEM BETTER. PYPER HAS 10 MORE DAYS OF TOBI AND SHE FINISHED HER ANTIBIOTIC 5 DAYS AGO, AND SHE SEEMED TO BE DOING BETTER, THEN MY OLDEST STARTED COUGHING. OMG, I AM SO STRESSED OUT. MY BABIES ARE MY WORLD. PYPER HAS NOW STARTED COUGHING AGAIN, AND I WANT THEM BETTER. PYPER HAD PSEUDOMONAS ON HER LAST CULTURE, TRINS DID NOT. LORD, HELP ME, WE HAVENT HAD A HOSPITAL STAY IN 8 YEARS, AND I WANT TO KEEP IT THAT WAY. PLEASE GOD, I AM BEGGIN YOU TO MAKE MY BABIES BETTER. GIVE IT TO ME, I WILL TAKE IT. MY BABIES, DONT DESERVE THIS.
RIGHT NOW, THEY ARE IN BED, AND THE SOUND OF A COUGH COMING DOWN THE HALLWAY BREAKS MY HEART. I WANT THEM BETTER. I KNOW SOMETIMES THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO BUT GET A TUNE UP IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT GOD, YOU CAN DO SOMETHING, YOU CAN MAKE THEM BETTER. THAT IS ALL I WANT. I AM SO STRESSED OUT. WE ARE WORRIED ABOUT MONEY, WHO IS GOING TO KEEP THE GIRLS IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK, THE COST OF MEDICINES, JUST EVERYTHING. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT PRAY, PRAY FOR HOPE, PRAY FOR SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WERE I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY, PRAY THAT I CAN CONTINUE TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY BABIES, PRAY FOR MY HUSBAND TO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TAKING CARE OF US, PRAYING FOR MY BABIES, GOD I AM PRAYING SO HARD FOR YOU TO MAKE THEM BETTER.
WE HAVE BEEN GOING TO CHURCH THE LAST 6 WEEKS, AND THE DEVIL IS REALLY WORKING HARD TO GET US OUT OF THERE. DEVIL, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN. EVERYONE SAYS KEEP FIGHTING, HE WILL SOON GIVE UP, BUT I FEEL LIKE HE IS MESSING WITH MY BABIES. DO I STOP, DO I WALK AWAY, DO I GO BACK TO WHEN WE JUST SIT AT HOME ON SUNDAYS, AND DID NOTHING. WILL MY BABIES GET BETTER. THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS US TO DO, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME STOP, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME GIVE UP. YOU WANT WIN THIS..... GOD, MY ONE AND ONLY PRAYER TONIGHT IS TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES, MAKE THEM BETTER, THEY ARE STILL PLAYING HARD BUT I KNOW THEY ARE NOT 100%. GET THE GERMS AND BACTERIA OUT OF THERE BODIES AND OUT OF MY HOUSE. LORD MAKE THEM BETTER, PLEASE MAKE THEM BETTER AT HOME WITH ME AND THERE DADDY. WE HAVE A BIRTHDAY COMING UP NEXT WEEKEND, MY BABY WILL BE 4 YEARS OLD. PLEASE GOD DO THIS FOR ME. IF THEY ARE NOT 100%, MOMMA IS NOT EITHER. I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT THEM.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE HEAR MY PRAYER, AND PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US... ONE MORE THING DEAR GOD, CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY BABIES AND ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE OR WHO HAVE FOUGHT THIS DISEASE...... PLEASE!!!!!!!
STRESSED OUT MOMMA,
MARTIE T.
RIGHT NOW, THEY ARE IN BED, AND THE SOUND OF A COUGH COMING DOWN THE HALLWAY BREAKS MY HEART. I WANT THEM BETTER. I KNOW SOMETIMES THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO BUT GET A TUNE UP IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT GOD, YOU CAN DO SOMETHING, YOU CAN MAKE THEM BETTER. THAT IS ALL I WANT. I AM SO STRESSED OUT. WE ARE WORRIED ABOUT MONEY, WHO IS GOING TO KEEP THE GIRLS IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK, THE COST OF MEDICINES, JUST EVERYTHING. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT PRAY, PRAY FOR HOPE, PRAY FOR SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WERE I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY, PRAY THAT I CAN CONTINUE TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY BABIES, PRAY FOR MY HUSBAND TO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TAKING CARE OF US, PRAYING FOR MY BABIES, GOD I AM PRAYING SO HARD FOR YOU TO MAKE THEM BETTER.
WE HAVE BEEN GOING TO CHURCH THE LAST 6 WEEKS, AND THE DEVIL IS REALLY WORKING HARD TO GET US OUT OF THERE. DEVIL, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN. EVERYONE SAYS KEEP FIGHTING, HE WILL SOON GIVE UP, BUT I FEEL LIKE HE IS MESSING WITH MY BABIES. DO I STOP, DO I WALK AWAY, DO I GO BACK TO WHEN WE JUST SIT AT HOME ON SUNDAYS, AND DID NOTHING. WILL MY BABIES GET BETTER. THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS US TO DO, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME STOP, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME GIVE UP. YOU WANT WIN THIS..... GOD, MY ONE AND ONLY PRAYER TONIGHT IS TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES, MAKE THEM BETTER, THEY ARE STILL PLAYING HARD BUT I KNOW THEY ARE NOT 100%. GET THE GERMS AND BACTERIA OUT OF THERE BODIES AND OUT OF MY HOUSE. LORD MAKE THEM BETTER, PLEASE MAKE THEM BETTER AT HOME WITH ME AND THERE DADDY. WE HAVE A BIRTHDAY COMING UP NEXT WEEKEND, MY BABY WILL BE 4 YEARS OLD. PLEASE GOD DO THIS FOR ME. IF THEY ARE NOT 100%, MOMMA IS NOT EITHER. I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT THEM.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE HEAR MY PRAYER, AND PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US... ONE MORE THING DEAR GOD, CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY BABIES AND ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE OR WHO HAVE FOUGHT THIS DISEASE...... PLEASE!!!!!!!
STRESSED OUT MOMMA,
MARTIE T.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
GERM SEASON IS HERE!!!
WENT TO A NEW CHURCH TODAY AND BOY CAN I JUST SAY THEY REALLY ROCK OUT!!!! GREAT EXPERIENCE FOR US AND THE GIRLS. I HAVE TO GO ALONE FOR AWHILE B/C MY HUBBY IS WORKING ON SUNDAYS NOW. YUCK...
THE GIRLS ARE DOING GOOD. WE HAVE OUR CF CHECK UP IN TWO WEEKS.. PRAY THAT GOES WELL... WE GOT OUR FLU SHOT FOR TRINS BUT CANT GET ONE FOR PYPER UNTIL PROBABLY THE END OF NOVEMBER. BOY THAT IS GOING TO BE GREAT. WILL HAVE TO KEEP HER HOME UNTIL I GET HER PROTECTED B/C I DONT WANT HER GETTING SICK. STILL LOOKING FOR A SHOT, BUT FOR NOW, STUCK AT HOME....
HERE LATELY I HAVE BEEN GETTING PHONE CALLS FOR JOBS, BUT WITH OUR SITUATION, THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN DO BUT PRAY. TIMES ARE TOUGH, BUT THE TURNER'S ARE WORKING HARD AND GOING TO MAKE IT WORK.. WE DONT EVER STOP FIGHTING. I CAN'T WORK RIGHT NOW B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME.
FALL IS HERE, AND I LOVE IT... COOL WEATHER, SWEAT SHIRTS, AND JEANS. MY FAVORITE BUT I ALSO HAVE TO START WORRYING SOME B/C FLU SEASON IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER, AND SICK SEASON. TIME FOR THE TURNER'S TO START STAYING AT HOME B/C CAN'T EXPOSE OUR BABIES TO ANYTHING THAT WOULD HURT THEM.
TODAY AT THE CHURCH WE VISITED, I HAD MY GIRLS SITTING RIGHT BESIDE ME AND THEY SEEMED LIKE THE ONLY KIDS IN THE SERVICE. THEY HAVE A WONDERFUL PLACE FOR THE KIDS TO PLAY AND MINE WANTED TO PLAY. I TOLD THEM I HAVE TO GET COMFORTABLE WITH THEM BEING IN THERE. THAT WAS PART OF THE TRUTH, BUT ALSO I WAS SCARED TO LEAVE MY BABIES WITH PEOPLE I DON'T REALLY KNOW AND THE FACT OF GERMS.... THE PREACHER AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT CF AND HE SAID THEY LOOK SO HEALTHY, AND I SAID I AM A GERMAPHOBE, I DONT REALLY EXPOSE THEM TO VERY MUCH. HE LAUGHED B/C HE NEW A GOOD BIT ABOUT CF, B/C HE AND HIS WIFE BOTH CARRY THE GENE. WHAT A SMALL WORLD.
I AM GOING TO GO FOR NOW SO I CAN SIT HERE WITH MY HUBBY BEFORE HE HAS TO GO TO BED WITH THE CHICKENS. HA, HA.
MARTIE
THE GIRLS ARE DOING GOOD. WE HAVE OUR CF CHECK UP IN TWO WEEKS.. PRAY THAT GOES WELL... WE GOT OUR FLU SHOT FOR TRINS BUT CANT GET ONE FOR PYPER UNTIL PROBABLY THE END OF NOVEMBER. BOY THAT IS GOING TO BE GREAT. WILL HAVE TO KEEP HER HOME UNTIL I GET HER PROTECTED B/C I DONT WANT HER GETTING SICK. STILL LOOKING FOR A SHOT, BUT FOR NOW, STUCK AT HOME....
HERE LATELY I HAVE BEEN GETTING PHONE CALLS FOR JOBS, BUT WITH OUR SITUATION, THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN DO BUT PRAY. TIMES ARE TOUGH, BUT THE TURNER'S ARE WORKING HARD AND GOING TO MAKE IT WORK.. WE DONT EVER STOP FIGHTING. I CAN'T WORK RIGHT NOW B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME.
FALL IS HERE, AND I LOVE IT... COOL WEATHER, SWEAT SHIRTS, AND JEANS. MY FAVORITE BUT I ALSO HAVE TO START WORRYING SOME B/C FLU SEASON IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER, AND SICK SEASON. TIME FOR THE TURNER'S TO START STAYING AT HOME B/C CAN'T EXPOSE OUR BABIES TO ANYTHING THAT WOULD HURT THEM.
TODAY AT THE CHURCH WE VISITED, I HAD MY GIRLS SITTING RIGHT BESIDE ME AND THEY SEEMED LIKE THE ONLY KIDS IN THE SERVICE. THEY HAVE A WONDERFUL PLACE FOR THE KIDS TO PLAY AND MINE WANTED TO PLAY. I TOLD THEM I HAVE TO GET COMFORTABLE WITH THEM BEING IN THERE. THAT WAS PART OF THE TRUTH, BUT ALSO I WAS SCARED TO LEAVE MY BABIES WITH PEOPLE I DON'T REALLY KNOW AND THE FACT OF GERMS.... THE PREACHER AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT CF AND HE SAID THEY LOOK SO HEALTHY, AND I SAID I AM A GERMAPHOBE, I DONT REALLY EXPOSE THEM TO VERY MUCH. HE LAUGHED B/C HE NEW A GOOD BIT ABOUT CF, B/C HE AND HIS WIFE BOTH CARRY THE GENE. WHAT A SMALL WORLD.
I AM GOING TO GO FOR NOW SO I CAN SIT HERE WITH MY HUBBY BEFORE HE HAS TO GO TO BED WITH THE CHICKENS. HA, HA.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
WE FIGHT AND WE LOVE HARD!!!
I HAVE COME TO REALIZE IN THE LAST FEW WEEKS, WHAT MEANS THE MOST TO ME-----MY HUBBY, AND MY GIRLS. I HAVE ALSO COME TO REALIZE THAT PEOPLE COME AND GO.... OUR GIRLS ARE DOING PRETTY GOOD. TRINITY IS HAVING SOME ROUGH TIMES WITH SCHOOL, CRYING SPELLS, COUGHS. WELCOME BACK SCHOOL YEAR!!!
I HAVE SEEN WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE PUT CF SUCKS. YES IT DOES, BUT REALLY LETS THINK ABOUT THIS-WHY WOULD YOU PUT THAT. THIS IS SOMETHING MY TWO BABIES HAVE TO LIVE WITH EVERYDAY AND I WANT THEM TO THINK THAT THEY ARE AS NORMAL AS THEY CAN BE WITH A FEW EXCEPTIONS. SO THINK BEFORE YOU PUT THAT. DO YOU WANT YOUR KIDS TO READ THAT? WHAT IF THEY LOOK AT YOU AND SAY MOM, WHY DO YOU PUT THAT? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
ALSO, HERE LATELY, GREG AND I HAVE HAD TO QUESTION OUR CLOSEST PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES. DO THEY REALLY CARE ABOUT US OR WERE WE THERE TO BE A DOOR MAT FOR THEM TO RUN OVER US. CAN I JUST SAY, WHEN I LOVE, OR WHEN I AM A FRIEND, I USUALLY DO THAT WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME. THERE ARE TIMES I MAY NOT BE THERE AT EVERY FUNCTION, BUT IF YOU CALL ME, I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE I AM THERE FOR YOU. SOMETIMES, I MAY SAY THINGS TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS, BUT KNOW WHEN I SAY THINGS, I AM DOING IT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. DO I STILL LOVE YOU, YES I DO!!! AM I TRYING TO GET PAST THE WAY I FEEL, YES I AM. IT IS HARD.
GREG AND I ARE ALSO TRYING TO DO THINGS TO MAKE SURE I CAN STAY AT HOME WITH OUR GIRLS FOR 2 MORE YEARS UNTIL PYPER STARTS SCHOOL. GREG AND I HAVE PUT ALL OUR FAITH IN THE LORD, AND PRAYING HE WILL PROVIDE WHAT WE NEED TO KEEP ME HOME. WE MAY NOT GO TO CHURCH EVERYDAY BUT DOES THAT MAKE ME A BAD PERSON. NO IT DOESNT. I BELIEVE WITH ALL MY HEART IN THE LORD GOD ALMIGHT. HE HAS TAKEN CARE OF MY GIRLS. I AM NOT GOING TO THROW IT IN YOUR FACE, BUT I DO BELIEVE.
ALSO I AM VERY PROUD OF MY SISTER, WHO IS GOING TO COLLEGE TO GET HER TEACHING DEGREE. SHE IS DOING GREAT. I KNOW THIS IS A BLOG FOR ME AND MY GIRLS, BUT I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM SO PROUD OF HER. NOT MUCH LONGER SHANNON. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. I DON'T TALK TO MY BROTHER REALLY AT ALL. I LOVE HIM, BUT WE JUST DON'T SPEAK. HE IS BUILDING A HOUSE WITH HIS NEW WIFE AND I AM HAPPY FOR HIM. I HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY, THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY FROM TIME TO TIME. MY MOM, LORD BLESS HER. SHE IS A MANIAC. SHE IS THE BEST MOM AND GRANDMA EVER, SHE WOULD WALK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FOR HER KIDS. THAT IS WHAT MAKES HER THE BEST. SHE FEELS SHE IS NOT. MY DAD AND STEP MOM ARE AMAZING TOO. I ALWAYS REMEMBER GROWING UP AND BEING DADDYS GIRL. WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH DIABETES, HE WAS SO UPSET. IT KILLED MY DADDY. BUT DADDY LOOK AT ME NOW. I AM A WONDERFUL MOTHER, TO TWO OF THE MOST AMAZING LITTLE GIRLS IN THE WORLD. DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, I AM GOING TO BE FINE. I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND IN THE WORLD. HE HAS A GOOD FAMILY, WHO IF WE NEED THEM THEY ARE HERE TO. MY HUBBY IS MY ROCK, IF I AM DOWN OR CRYING, HE IS RIGHT THERE TO PICK ME UP. WE DO EVERYTHING TOGETHER. IF I COOK, HE CLEANS, I CLEAN THE INSIDE, HE TAKES THE OUTSIDE. WE TAG TEAM EVERYTHING. THANK YOU GG, FOR BEING THE MOST AMAZING MAN AND FATHER. NO ONE REALIZES WHAT ALL HE HAS DONE FOR THIS FAMILY AND WHAT ALL HE HAS GIVEN UP FOR US. I DO AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FOR THAT AND FOR THE MAN HE IS. AMAZING!!!!!! ONE DAY I WILL HOPEFULLY BE ABLE TO REPAY YOU FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR US. MAYBE ONE DAY YOU CAN STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX WHILE BOTH GIRLS ARE IN SCHOOL.
GETTING READY TO WATCH DANCING WITH THE STARS. SO I AM GOING TO GO FOR NOW. SORRY MY BLOG WAS ABOUT ME AND MY FAMILY. MY GIRLS ARE DOING GREAT AND THAT IS THE WAY IT IS GOING TO CONTINUE. WE FIGHT AND WE LOVE HARD. CF WILL STAND FOR CURE FOUND!!!!!
I HAVE SEEN WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE PUT CF SUCKS. YES IT DOES, BUT REALLY LETS THINK ABOUT THIS-WHY WOULD YOU PUT THAT. THIS IS SOMETHING MY TWO BABIES HAVE TO LIVE WITH EVERYDAY AND I WANT THEM TO THINK THAT THEY ARE AS NORMAL AS THEY CAN BE WITH A FEW EXCEPTIONS. SO THINK BEFORE YOU PUT THAT. DO YOU WANT YOUR KIDS TO READ THAT? WHAT IF THEY LOOK AT YOU AND SAY MOM, WHY DO YOU PUT THAT? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
ALSO, HERE LATELY, GREG AND I HAVE HAD TO QUESTION OUR CLOSEST PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES. DO THEY REALLY CARE ABOUT US OR WERE WE THERE TO BE A DOOR MAT FOR THEM TO RUN OVER US. CAN I JUST SAY, WHEN I LOVE, OR WHEN I AM A FRIEND, I USUALLY DO THAT WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME. THERE ARE TIMES I MAY NOT BE THERE AT EVERY FUNCTION, BUT IF YOU CALL ME, I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE I AM THERE FOR YOU. SOMETIMES, I MAY SAY THINGS TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS, BUT KNOW WHEN I SAY THINGS, I AM DOING IT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. DO I STILL LOVE YOU, YES I DO!!! AM I TRYING TO GET PAST THE WAY I FEEL, YES I AM. IT IS HARD.
GREG AND I ARE ALSO TRYING TO DO THINGS TO MAKE SURE I CAN STAY AT HOME WITH OUR GIRLS FOR 2 MORE YEARS UNTIL PYPER STARTS SCHOOL. GREG AND I HAVE PUT ALL OUR FAITH IN THE LORD, AND PRAYING HE WILL PROVIDE WHAT WE NEED TO KEEP ME HOME. WE MAY NOT GO TO CHURCH EVERYDAY BUT DOES THAT MAKE ME A BAD PERSON. NO IT DOESNT. I BELIEVE WITH ALL MY HEART IN THE LORD GOD ALMIGHT. HE HAS TAKEN CARE OF MY GIRLS. I AM NOT GOING TO THROW IT IN YOUR FACE, BUT I DO BELIEVE.
ALSO I AM VERY PROUD OF MY SISTER, WHO IS GOING TO COLLEGE TO GET HER TEACHING DEGREE. SHE IS DOING GREAT. I KNOW THIS IS A BLOG FOR ME AND MY GIRLS, BUT I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM SO PROUD OF HER. NOT MUCH LONGER SHANNON. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. I DON'T TALK TO MY BROTHER REALLY AT ALL. I LOVE HIM, BUT WE JUST DON'T SPEAK. HE IS BUILDING A HOUSE WITH HIS NEW WIFE AND I AM HAPPY FOR HIM. I HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY, THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY FROM TIME TO TIME. MY MOM, LORD BLESS HER. SHE IS A MANIAC. SHE IS THE BEST MOM AND GRANDMA EVER, SHE WOULD WALK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FOR HER KIDS. THAT IS WHAT MAKES HER THE BEST. SHE FEELS SHE IS NOT. MY DAD AND STEP MOM ARE AMAZING TOO. I ALWAYS REMEMBER GROWING UP AND BEING DADDYS GIRL. WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH DIABETES, HE WAS SO UPSET. IT KILLED MY DADDY. BUT DADDY LOOK AT ME NOW. I AM A WONDERFUL MOTHER, TO TWO OF THE MOST AMAZING LITTLE GIRLS IN THE WORLD. DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, I AM GOING TO BE FINE. I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND IN THE WORLD. HE HAS A GOOD FAMILY, WHO IF WE NEED THEM THEY ARE HERE TO. MY HUBBY IS MY ROCK, IF I AM DOWN OR CRYING, HE IS RIGHT THERE TO PICK ME UP. WE DO EVERYTHING TOGETHER. IF I COOK, HE CLEANS, I CLEAN THE INSIDE, HE TAKES THE OUTSIDE. WE TAG TEAM EVERYTHING. THANK YOU GG, FOR BEING THE MOST AMAZING MAN AND FATHER. NO ONE REALIZES WHAT ALL HE HAS DONE FOR THIS FAMILY AND WHAT ALL HE HAS GIVEN UP FOR US. I DO AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FOR THAT AND FOR THE MAN HE IS. AMAZING!!!!!! ONE DAY I WILL HOPEFULLY BE ABLE TO REPAY YOU FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR US. MAYBE ONE DAY YOU CAN STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX WHILE BOTH GIRLS ARE IN SCHOOL.
GETTING READY TO WATCH DANCING WITH THE STARS. SO I AM GOING TO GO FOR NOW. SORRY MY BLOG WAS ABOUT ME AND MY FAMILY. MY GIRLS ARE DOING GREAT AND THAT IS THE WAY IT IS GOING TO CONTINUE. WE FIGHT AND WE LOVE HARD. CF WILL STAND FOR CURE FOUND!!!!!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
A CHANGE IS COMING
I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS WERE I FEEL LIKE CRAP.... MY SINUSES ARE ACTING UP AND I JUST FEEL BAD. MY GIRLS ARE DOING GREAT.. WE ARE IN 3RD GRADE NOW WITH MY OLDEST, AND GOD YOU HAVE TAKEN CARE OF HER SO MUCH AND I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE DOING THIS AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I WISH I COULD TELL YOU FACE TO FACE BUT I CAN'T..
I AM SITTING HERE WATCHING TV WITH MY LITTLE ONE RIGHT BESIDE OF ME AND SHE IS MY LITTLE MONSTER. SHE IS EVERYWHERE I GO, I TURN AND THERE SHE IS. SOMETIMES IT DRIVES ME CRAZY, B/C I CAN'T EVEN GO TO THE BATHROOM WITHOUT HER. BUT ONE OF THESE DAYS I AM GOING TO MISS THAT B/C ONE DAY SHE IS NOT GOING TO WANT TO BE SEEN WITH ME AND IF I THINK ABOUT THAT IT HURTS.
NEXT WEEK IS THE START OF ME JUST BEING HOME WITH MY BABIES, I AM SO EXCITED AND SO SCARED ALL AT THE SAME TIME. DID I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION, DID I JUST HURT OUR FAMILY. I AM READY FOR WHATEVER GOD HAS TO OFFER ME. I WANT TO BE HERE FOR MY GIRLS. I AM READY TO GO HAVE LUNCH WITH MY BABY, OR GO ON FIELD TRIPS. I LOVE ALL MY BABIES I KEEP, BUT MOMMA NEEDS TO GET HERSELF BACK, AND GIVE MYSELF MORE TO MY GIRLS. THEY NEED ME AND I NEED THEM. ALSO I AM GOING TO TRY AND START TO GET MY BABIES OUT OF MY BED, MY OLDEST IS 8 AND MY YOUNGEST IS 3. I AM HAVING CHEST PAIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IT IS TIME FOR ME AND GREG TO GET OUR BED BACK.
EVERYONE SAY A PRAYER FOR THE TURNER'S BECAUSE OUR WORLDS ARE GETTING READY TO CHANGE. WISH US LUCK B/C WE NEED IT AND SAY A LITTLE EXTRA PRAYER FOR MY HUBBY. HE IS THE STRONGEST AND BEST MAN EVER. HE DOES SO MUCH FOR US AND I HOPE HE KNOWS HOW VERY MUCH THAT MEANS TO ME.
I LOVE MY HUBBY AND MY GIRLS MORE THAN ANYTHING. THEY ARE THE REASON I BREATHE!!!!
MARTIE
I AM SITTING HERE WATCHING TV WITH MY LITTLE ONE RIGHT BESIDE OF ME AND SHE IS MY LITTLE MONSTER. SHE IS EVERYWHERE I GO, I TURN AND THERE SHE IS. SOMETIMES IT DRIVES ME CRAZY, B/C I CAN'T EVEN GO TO THE BATHROOM WITHOUT HER. BUT ONE OF THESE DAYS I AM GOING TO MISS THAT B/C ONE DAY SHE IS NOT GOING TO WANT TO BE SEEN WITH ME AND IF I THINK ABOUT THAT IT HURTS.
NEXT WEEK IS THE START OF ME JUST BEING HOME WITH MY BABIES, I AM SO EXCITED AND SO SCARED ALL AT THE SAME TIME. DID I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION, DID I JUST HURT OUR FAMILY. I AM READY FOR WHATEVER GOD HAS TO OFFER ME. I WANT TO BE HERE FOR MY GIRLS. I AM READY TO GO HAVE LUNCH WITH MY BABY, OR GO ON FIELD TRIPS. I LOVE ALL MY BABIES I KEEP, BUT MOMMA NEEDS TO GET HERSELF BACK, AND GIVE MYSELF MORE TO MY GIRLS. THEY NEED ME AND I NEED THEM. ALSO I AM GOING TO TRY AND START TO GET MY BABIES OUT OF MY BED, MY OLDEST IS 8 AND MY YOUNGEST IS 3. I AM HAVING CHEST PAIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IT IS TIME FOR ME AND GREG TO GET OUR BED BACK.
EVERYONE SAY A PRAYER FOR THE TURNER'S BECAUSE OUR WORLDS ARE GETTING READY TO CHANGE. WISH US LUCK B/C WE NEED IT AND SAY A LITTLE EXTRA PRAYER FOR MY HUBBY. HE IS THE STRONGEST AND BEST MAN EVER. HE DOES SO MUCH FOR US AND I HOPE HE KNOWS HOW VERY MUCH THAT MEANS TO ME.
I LOVE MY HUBBY AND MY GIRLS MORE THAN ANYTHING. THEY ARE THE REASON I BREATHE!!!!
MARTIE
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
GOD, I HEAR YOU
DO YOU EVER WONDER IF YOU MADE THE RIGHT DECISION FOR YOUR FAMILY.... DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE HURT YOUR FAMILY... THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS, I HAVE HAD TO MAKE THE DECISION TO STOP WATCHING KIDS THAT I WAS KEEPING.. NOW I FEEL LIKE I HAVE PUT SO MUCH MORE ON MY HUSBAND.. NOW HE HAS ALL THE BURDEN ON HIM. I STRESS SO MUCH, I WORRY SO MUCH, AND I CAN'T IMAGINE NOT BEING ABLE TO GET MY KIDS SOMETHING IF THEY WANT IT. I KNOW THAT SHOULDNT MATTER, BUT IT BOTHERS ME. MY FAMILY KEEPS SAYING, MARTIE I KNOW HOW YOU ARE ABOUT YOUR GIRLS, WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO? IF I NEW DO YOU THINK I WOULD BE SO WORRIED.
SOMETIMES IN LIFE YOU HAVE TO SINK OR SWIM, YOU HAVE TO FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU FEEL IS RIGHT. GREG AND I BOTH FEEL I NEED TO BE HOME WITH OUR GIRLS. WHAT IS WEIRD, IS DO YOU EVER WONDER IF GOD IS TRYING TO TELL YOU TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND YOU ARE NOT LISTENING. LAST YEAR WHEN I STAYED AT HOME, WE DECIDED TO PUT OUR HOUSE ON THE MARKET, THE VERY NEXT DAY, AN OLD DOCTOR I WORKED FOR CALLED ME AND ASK ME TO COME BACK TO WORK FOR HIM. WAS THAT GOD TALKING TO ME...... SO I PUT IT IN GODS HANDS AND I WENT BACK TO WORK AND WE TOOK THE HOUSE OFF THE MARKET. WHEN I STOPPED WORKING THIS TIME, I STARTED KEEPING A FRIEND OF OURS TWO LITTLE ONES, AND THE VERY FIRST DAY I KEPT THEM, I GOT A CALL ABOUT A JOB. THIS TIME I DIDNT FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THAT SIGN FROM GOD BUT NOW I AM WONDERING IF GOD HAS BEEN TALKING TO ME ALL ALONG. I FEEL SO MUCH IN MY HEART, THAT I NEED TO BE HOME WITH MY GIRLS.. THERE IS NO ONE THAT CAN TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES LIKE I CAN. THEY EAT BETTER FOR ME, WE GET ALL OUR TREATMENTS AND VEST DONE.
GOD, I WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU ARE TALKING TO ME, I HEAR YOU, I SEE THE SIGNS I AM GETTING, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MY GIRLS NEED ME. IF I THINK ABOUT GOING BACK TO WORK, I FEEL LIKE I COULD JUST DIE. I AM A HARD WORKER, WHEN I WORKED I LOVED IT, BUT NOW THINGS ARE DIFFERENT, I HAVE MY BABIES TO WORRY ABOUT. SO GOD, PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US, WE NEED YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW, BUT I HAVE TO DO WHAT I FEEL IS RIGHT AND THAT IS BEING WITH MY BABIES. DEAR GOD, PLEASE WATCH OVER GREG, HE IS DOING EVERYTHING HE CAN TO TAKE CARE OF US AND GOD THE NUMBER ONE THING I NEED FROM YOU IS A CURE FOR CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY GIRLS AND FOR ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE. THAT HAS AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE PRAYER.
MY GIRLS ARE DOING GOOD, THEY ARE FIGHTING THIS FIGHT AND DOING A GREAT JOB KICKING ITS BUTT. CYSTIC FIBROSIS YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN THIS.. THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO WIN THIS BATTLE. SO BACK OFF!!!
MARTIE
SOMETIMES IN LIFE YOU HAVE TO SINK OR SWIM, YOU HAVE TO FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU FEEL IS RIGHT. GREG AND I BOTH FEEL I NEED TO BE HOME WITH OUR GIRLS. WHAT IS WEIRD, IS DO YOU EVER WONDER IF GOD IS TRYING TO TELL YOU TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND YOU ARE NOT LISTENING. LAST YEAR WHEN I STAYED AT HOME, WE DECIDED TO PUT OUR HOUSE ON THE MARKET, THE VERY NEXT DAY, AN OLD DOCTOR I WORKED FOR CALLED ME AND ASK ME TO COME BACK TO WORK FOR HIM. WAS THAT GOD TALKING TO ME...... SO I PUT IT IN GODS HANDS AND I WENT BACK TO WORK AND WE TOOK THE HOUSE OFF THE MARKET. WHEN I STOPPED WORKING THIS TIME, I STARTED KEEPING A FRIEND OF OURS TWO LITTLE ONES, AND THE VERY FIRST DAY I KEPT THEM, I GOT A CALL ABOUT A JOB. THIS TIME I DIDNT FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THAT SIGN FROM GOD BUT NOW I AM WONDERING IF GOD HAS BEEN TALKING TO ME ALL ALONG. I FEEL SO MUCH IN MY HEART, THAT I NEED TO BE HOME WITH MY GIRLS.. THERE IS NO ONE THAT CAN TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES LIKE I CAN. THEY EAT BETTER FOR ME, WE GET ALL OUR TREATMENTS AND VEST DONE.
GOD, I WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU ARE TALKING TO ME, I HEAR YOU, I SEE THE SIGNS I AM GETTING, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MY GIRLS NEED ME. IF I THINK ABOUT GOING BACK TO WORK, I FEEL LIKE I COULD JUST DIE. I AM A HARD WORKER, WHEN I WORKED I LOVED IT, BUT NOW THINGS ARE DIFFERENT, I HAVE MY BABIES TO WORRY ABOUT. SO GOD, PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US, WE NEED YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW, BUT I HAVE TO DO WHAT I FEEL IS RIGHT AND THAT IS BEING WITH MY BABIES. DEAR GOD, PLEASE WATCH OVER GREG, HE IS DOING EVERYTHING HE CAN TO TAKE CARE OF US AND GOD THE NUMBER ONE THING I NEED FROM YOU IS A CURE FOR CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY GIRLS AND FOR ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE. THAT HAS AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE PRAYER.
MY GIRLS ARE DOING GOOD, THEY ARE FIGHTING THIS FIGHT AND DOING A GREAT JOB KICKING ITS BUTT. CYSTIC FIBROSIS YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN THIS.. THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO WIN THIS BATTLE. SO BACK OFF!!!
MARTIE
Saturday, September 4, 2010
WHAT REALLY MATTERS!!!!!
DO YOU EVER WONDER ABOUT THE IMPORTANT STUFF? WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT, WHAT MATTERS THE MOST TO YOU? HERE LATELY, WE HAVE BEEN SO WORRIED ABOUT FINANCES AND HOW ARE WE GOING TO BE ABLE TO PAY THIS AND THAT. MY HUSBAND IS DOING EVERYTHING BY HIMSELF. I DONT WORK, SO I CAN STAY AT HOME WITH OUR KIDS AND TAKE CARE OF THEM. I FEEL LIKE I AM LETTING HIM DOWN, B/C I DONT WORK. HE JUST SAYS DONT WORRY, WORRYING MAKES THINGS WORSE AND IT DOESNT HELP. I AM A WOMAN, A MOTHER AND A WIFE, AND I WORRY ALL THE TIME. STRESS GETS THE BEST OF ME. I WORRY ABOUT BEING ABLE TO KEEP GREAT CREDIT, AND DOES THAT EVEN MATTER THIS DAY AND TIME. WHAT MATTERS THE MOST TO ME IS MY HUSBAND AND MY BABIES AND MAKING SURE THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF.
GREG AND I WERE TALKING TONIGHT AND I SAID GREG IF IT COMES DOWN TO FOOD FOR OUR KIDS OR A CREDIT CARD PAYMENT, YOU KNOW WHICH IS GOING TO WIN AND HE SAID I KNOW... WE ARE TWO PARENTS, WITH TWO KIDS WITH CF, I AM A TYPE 1 DIABETIC, AND WHY DOES MY HUSBAND NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF. IF I THINK ABOUT IT, I GET MAD AND THEN I SAY TO MYSELF, GOD WOULDNT WANT YOU TO BE MAD. THERE IS A REASON WE HAVE TO STRUGGLE, MAYBE IT IS MAKING US STRONGER, MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE WE MADE STUPID MISTAKES WITH OUR MONEY IN THE PAST. GOD WE UNDERSTAND NOW...
I REALIZE MORE THAN EVER NOW THAT THIS FAMILY, MY HUBBY, AND MY GIRLS ARE WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME. DOES THIS OTHER STUFF EVEN MATTER. THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT IT DOES MATTER, BUT IT DOESNT EVEN RANK CLOSE TO THE 3 MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE TO ME. THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO BE FINE. WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT... WE HAVE LOVE, WE HAVE EACH OTHER AND I KNOW THAT GOD IS WATCHING OVER US.
DEAR GOD, I ASK PRETTY MUCH EVERYDAY FOR YOU TO TAKE CARE OF US AND TO CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS. PLEASE CONTINUE TO MAKE SURE WE ARE OK, AND THAT YOU GIVE THOSE THE WISDOM THEY NEED TO CURE THIS DISEASE.
THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY FAMILY IS SO REAL AND SO STRONG. I WAS WITH MY DAD AND STEP MOM TODAY IN WALMART AND MY YOUNGEST PYPER SAW A TOY AND MADE THAT SOUND, THE ONE WERE YOU KNOW SHE IS SO EXCITED JUST TO SEE IT SITTING ON THE SHELF AND MY DAD SAID WOULDNT YOU LOVE TO FEEL THAT FEELING AGAIN AND I SAID I DO EVERYDAY. I GET TO SEE THE EXCITEMENT ON THERE FACE AND I LIVE IT THROUGH THEM. I FEEL THERE JOY, JUST BY SEEING THERE FACE, AND THERE EXCITEMENT. SO DADDY, I DO FEEL IT. I HAVE FELT THAT JOY EVERYDAY NOW FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS B/C THAT IS WHEN I HAD MY FIRST DAUGHTER. THAT JOY HAS NOT WENT AWAY AND IT NEVER WILL.
MARTIE
GREG AND I WERE TALKING TONIGHT AND I SAID GREG IF IT COMES DOWN TO FOOD FOR OUR KIDS OR A CREDIT CARD PAYMENT, YOU KNOW WHICH IS GOING TO WIN AND HE SAID I KNOW... WE ARE TWO PARENTS, WITH TWO KIDS WITH CF, I AM A TYPE 1 DIABETIC, AND WHY DOES MY HUSBAND NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF. IF I THINK ABOUT IT, I GET MAD AND THEN I SAY TO MYSELF, GOD WOULDNT WANT YOU TO BE MAD. THERE IS A REASON WE HAVE TO STRUGGLE, MAYBE IT IS MAKING US STRONGER, MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE WE MADE STUPID MISTAKES WITH OUR MONEY IN THE PAST. GOD WE UNDERSTAND NOW...
I REALIZE MORE THAN EVER NOW THAT THIS FAMILY, MY HUBBY, AND MY GIRLS ARE WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME. DOES THIS OTHER STUFF EVEN MATTER. THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT IT DOES MATTER, BUT IT DOESNT EVEN RANK CLOSE TO THE 3 MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE TO ME. THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO BE FINE. WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT... WE HAVE LOVE, WE HAVE EACH OTHER AND I KNOW THAT GOD IS WATCHING OVER US.
DEAR GOD, I ASK PRETTY MUCH EVERYDAY FOR YOU TO TAKE CARE OF US AND TO CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS. PLEASE CONTINUE TO MAKE SURE WE ARE OK, AND THAT YOU GIVE THOSE THE WISDOM THEY NEED TO CURE THIS DISEASE.
THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY FAMILY IS SO REAL AND SO STRONG. I WAS WITH MY DAD AND STEP MOM TODAY IN WALMART AND MY YOUNGEST PYPER SAW A TOY AND MADE THAT SOUND, THE ONE WERE YOU KNOW SHE IS SO EXCITED JUST TO SEE IT SITTING ON THE SHELF AND MY DAD SAID WOULDNT YOU LOVE TO FEEL THAT FEELING AGAIN AND I SAID I DO EVERYDAY. I GET TO SEE THE EXCITEMENT ON THERE FACE AND I LIVE IT THROUGH THEM. I FEEL THERE JOY, JUST BY SEEING THERE FACE, AND THERE EXCITEMENT. SO DADDY, I DO FEEL IT. I HAVE FELT THAT JOY EVERYDAY NOW FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS B/C THAT IS WHEN I HAD MY FIRST DAUGHTER. THAT JOY HAS NOT WENT AWAY AND IT NEVER WILL.
MARTIE
Friday, September 3, 2010
ONE PROUD MOMMA
I AM SITTING HERE WATCHING TV WITH PYPER AND TRINS IS AT SCHOOL. DO ANY OF YOU FEEL LOST WHEN YOUR CHILD IS NOT HOME, DO YOU MISS THEM SO MUCH, WELL I DO.. I KNOW WHEN SHE GETS HOME IT WILL BE FIGHTING, AND TRYING TO DO ALL OUR AFTERNOON STUFF DONE, BUT I WOULD RATHER DO THAT, THAN ANYTHING ELSE.
THIS MORNING WHEN TAKING TRINS TO SCHOOL, I LOOKED AROUND THE CAR AND WAS SO PROUD OF MY GIRLS. TRINS IS ALL SMILES B/C PYPER AND ME ARE DANCING ALL THE WAY TO SCHOOL, BUT ONCE WE GET IN THE SCHOOL PARKING LOT, THAT HAS TO STOP B/C SHE IS TO HIP FOR HER MOM TO DANCE. I LOOKED IN THE BACKSEAT ONE TIME AND PYPER IS NOW IN A BIG GIRL CAR SEAT AND IT JUST MADE ME SMILE SO MUCH. THE LOOKS ON THERE FACES, THE SMILES, WITH TEETH AND WITHOUT JUST LIGHTS UP MY DAY.
BEFORE I HAD KIDS, I NEVER EVEN REALIZED WHAT LOVE WAS ALL ABOUT. WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, I WAS SO EXCITED. I REMEMBER SAYING BEFORE TRINS GOT HERE THAT SHE WOULD NOT SLEEP IN MY BED, I WAS NOT GOING TO BREASTFEED, SHE WOULD GO TO DAYCARE. BOY, LOOK AT ME NOW, IF SHE DOES FALL ASLEEP IN HER BED, MOST OF THE TIME, I GO AND MOVE HER INTO OUR BED. I LOVE WAKING UP AND LOOKING OVER AND SEEING PYPER, TRINITY, THE DOG AND THEN MY HUBBY. I DID ALL THE THINGS I SAID I NEVER WOULD AND I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. BEING A STAY AT HOME MOM IS A GIFT. I WOULDNT CHANGE A THING. YES MONEY IS TIGHT, AND THERE ARE TIMES WE DONT KNOW HOW WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT BUT THIS IS MY LIFE AND I LOVE EVERY SECOND. FAMILY ALWAYS SAYS TO US, YOU NEED TO SAVE, PUT MONEY AWAY FOR HARD TIMES, GET OUT OF DEBT AND YES WE AGREE, BUT WITH ONE INCOME WE CANT DO THAT. ALL OUR MONEY TAKES CARE OF US.....
CYSTIC FIBROSIS IS NOT GOING TO STOP US. THIS FAMILY OF 4 IS GOING TO KICK CF'S ASS.... MY BABIES ARE GOING TO GROW TO BE OLD, AND I AM PRAYING I AM AROUND TO WATCH EVERY SECOND OF IT... I ALWAYS SAY, LOVE YOUR BABIES, BE THERE FOR THEM, WATCH THEM GROW AND SMILE. DONT BE A DEADBEAT PARENT WHO DOESNT CARE. GOD GAVE YOU THESE BABIES FOR A REASON AND I KNOW WHY HE GAVE ME MINE. TRINITY AND PYPER, I LOVE YOU TWO SO MUCH IT HURTS AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU TWO AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU THROUGH THICK AND THEN.
ONE PROUD MOMMA,
MARTIE
Sunday, August 15, 2010
HOW ONE TOOTH CAN MEAN SO MUCH!!!
SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM WATCHING TV, WHILE MY LITTLE MONSTERS SLEEP. WELL MY BIG GIRL TRINITY LOST A TOOTH AND SHE WAS SO EXCITED. HOW ONE TOOTH CAN MEAN SO MUCH, AND IT MADE ME THINK, ONE TOOTH MEANS THAT MUCH TO HER BUT SHE DOESNT EVEN REALIZE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO ME. I REMEMBER SHE SAT UP IN BED AROUND 1AM AND SAID MOMMY MY TOOTH IS STILL HERE I SAID BABY THE TOOTH FAIRY HASNT COME YET AND SHE WENT BACK TO BED. THE FUNNY THING IS, WHEN I FINALLY GOT UP TO DO IT, I COULDNT GET THE TOOTH OUT FROM UNDER HER PILLOW. HOW FUNNY. AFTER A COUPLE OF HOURS, THE GOOD TOOTH FAIRY DID HER JOB. THE SMILE ON HER FACE, NOW TOOTHLESS WAS PRICELESS. IT IS SO WEIRD HOW CF AFFECTS THEM. THEY LOSE THERE TEETH LATER, THEY DONT GAIN WEIGHT, THEY CAN EAT ALL DAY LONG AND NEVER GAIN A POUND, HOW A LITTLE COLD CAN TURN INTO PNEUMONIA IN LESS THAN A DAY, HOW THEY TASTE SALTY, ETC.
ALL I AM ASKING IS FOR GOD TO MAKE MY BABIES BETTER. TAKE ME DEAR LORD, TAKE WHATEVER YOU NEED FROM ME TO MAKE THEM BETTER, I AM READY. I CANT IMAGINE NOT BEING HERE WITH THEM, BUT THEN AGAIN, I CANT EVEN IMAGINE, OR BREATHE NOT THINKING ABOUT THEM BEING RIGHT HERE WITH ME. IT IS CRAZY. I STRESS OUT SO MUCH WHEN MY OLDEST GETS OUT OF THE CAR TO WALK IN SCHOOL, IS SHE GETTING TO WERE SHE NEEDS TO GO, IS SHE OK, IS SHE UPSET. I DONT EVEN LIKE TO LET THEM GO TO THERE GRANDPARENTS HOUSE, B/C I DONT KNOW HOW TO ACT WHEN THEY ARE GONE. MY HUSBAND SAYS I AM LOST WITHOUT THEM. HE IS SO RIGHT, I AM LOST.. THEY DRIVE ME ABSOLUTELY CRAZY, BUT GUESS WHAT- I CANT GET ENOUGHT OF THOSE TWO LITTLE MONSTERS. MY YOUNGEST PYPER IS WHAT YOU WOULD CALL A STRONG WILLED CHILD. SHE WILL BEAT HER HEAD, SHE WILL STARE YOU DOWN AND NOT BLINK WHEN YOU TELL HER NO, SHE IS MY LITTLE MONSTER BUT WHEN SHE IS WITH ME BY HERSELF, SHE IS THE BEST BABY EVER. PEOPLE ASK ME, DO YOUR KIDS NO THEY HAVE CF, YES THEY DO. WHY WOULD I KEEP THAT FROM THEM.
AS I AM WRITING THIS I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW, THAT LOVE YOUR BABIES LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW. GIVE THEM YOUR ATTENTION. BUYING THEM SOMETHING ISNT REALLY WHAT THEY WANT AT ALL, THEY JUST WANT YOU TO LISTEN TO THEM, PLAY WITH THEM AND BE THERE FOR THEM. BEING A MOM IS WHAT I DO BEST, AND TAKING CARE OF MY TWO IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO UNTIL THE DAY GOD TAKES ME FROM THIS WORLD.
DEAR GOD, TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES AND PLEASE CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS, (65 ROSES), THAT IS ALL I WANT, KEEP MY BABIES HEALTHY.
MARTIE
Friday, August 13, 2010
WHY US, WHY MY GIRLS
why us, why my girls
DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY ME, WHY MY FAMILY, WHY MY GIRLS. I SIT AND LOOK SOMETIMES AT ALL THE FAMILIES OUT THERE WHO HAVE IT SO EASY, AND IT MAKES ME MAD, AND IT SHOULDNT, BUT IT DOES. MY GIRLS DESERVE TO BE HAPPY, HEALTHY, AND TO BE ABLE TO GET UP AND NOT HAVE TO DO ENZYMES, NEBULIZERS, VEST THERAPY, VITAMINS. I AM ONE MOTHER WHO IS FIGHTING FOR HER DAUGHTERS LIVES SO THEY CAN LIVE, AND BREATHE EASY. I THINK BACK AND REMEMBER THE DAY WE WERE GIVEN THE NEWS OF MY OLDEST DAUGHTER HAVING CF. I FELT LOST, AND SO ALONE. I WAS HOLDING HER IN MY ARMS AND SHE WAS SO LITTLE BECAUSE SHE WASNT GAINING WEIGHT, AND I FELT LIKE I WANTED TO DIE. MY HUSBAND ON THE OTHER HAND SHUT DOWN, HE DIDNT TALK, HE JUST SAT AND LISTENED TO WHAT THE DOCTORS HAD TO SAY. THE OTHER DAY, MY HUSBAND WAS ON THE COMPUTER AND HE DIDNT SHUT DOWN A PAGE HE HAD LOOKED AT AND I PULLED IT UP AND HE WAS LOOKING AT LIFE EXPECTANCY OF CF AND DIABETES, B/C I HAVE DIABETES, AND MY HEART BROKE. TEARS CAME ROLLING DOWN MY FACE WHEN I ASK HIM, AND HE SAID MARTIE I WAS JUST LOOKING. HE TOLD ME ONE DAY THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE ALONE WHEN HE GETS OLD, WITHOUT US. MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER WAS TESTED FOR CF WHEN SHE WAS BORN, THEY TESTED HER CORD BLOOD, AND WE FOUND OUT WHEN SHE WAS 6 DAYS OLD. I WAS UPSET BUT SOMETHING HAD TOLD ME FROM THE DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT THAT THIS BABY HAD IT TO. I HAVE THE HARDEST TIME NOT BLAMING MYSELF. MY GIRLS RIGHT NOW ARE 8 AND 3. THEY ARE MY WORLD. WE FIGHT CF, AND I AM A BIT OF A GERMAPHOBE NOW SO I TRY TO KEEP THEM AWAY FROM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I BET A LOT OF YOU DONT PANIC WHEN YOU HEAR A COUGH FROM SOMEONE AROUND YOU, WELL I DO. WHAT IF THAT PERSON HAS SOMETHING MY GIRLS CANT FIGHT OFF. I NEVER REALIZED THAT A COUGH COULD SCARE ME SO MUCH, AND IT DOES. NOW I DONT ASK WHY ME, WHY MY GIRLS, I JUST TAKE CARE OF THEM, THIS IS MY JOB, MY DUTY AS A MOTHER AND I WANT LET MY BABIES DOWN. WHATEVER I HAVE TO DO FOR THEM, I WILL. TO TRINITY AND PYPER IF YOU ONLY NEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU TWO SO MUCH. YOU GUYS ARE THE REASON I BREATHE. YOU TWO ARE MY ROCK ALONG WITH MY HUBBY. SO I NO LONGER ASK WHY B/C MY BABIES MAKE ME FEEL COMPLETE. WE ARE NORMAL, I AM JUST A MOM DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES.
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DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY ME, WHY MY FAMILY, WHY MY GIRLS. I SIT AND LOOK SOMETIMES AT ALL THE FAMILIES OUT THERE WHO HAVE IT SO EASY, AND IT MAKES ME MAD, AND IT SHOULDNT, BUT IT DOES. MY GIRLS DESERVE TO BE HAPPY, HEALTHY, AND TO BE ABLE TO GET UP AND NOT HAVE TO DO ENZYMES, NEBULIZERS, VEST THERAPY, VITAMINS. I AM ONE MOTHER WHO IS FIGHTING FOR HER DAUGHTERS LIVES SO THEY CAN LIVE, AND BREATHE EASY. I THINK BACK AND REMEMBER THE DAY WE WERE GIVEN THE NEWS OF MY OLDEST DAUGHTER HAVING CF. I FELT LOST, AND SO ALONE. I WAS HOLDING HER IN MY ARMS AND SHE WAS SO LITTLE BECAUSE SHE WASNT GAINING WEIGHT, AND I FELT LIKE I WANTED TO DIE. MY HUSBAND ON THE OTHER HAND SHUT DOWN, HE DIDNT TALK, HE JUST SAT AND LISTENED TO WHAT THE DOCTORS HAD TO SAY. THE OTHER DAY, MY HUSBAND WAS ON THE COMPUTER AND HE DIDNT SHUT DOWN A PAGE HE HAD LOOKED AT AND I PULLED IT UP AND HE WAS LOOKING AT LIFE EXPECTANCY OF CF AND DIABETES, B/C I HAVE DIABETES, AND MY HEART BROKE. TEARS CAME ROLLING DOWN MY FACE WHEN I ASK HIM, AND HE SAID MARTIE I WAS JUST LOOKING. HE TOLD ME ONE DAY THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE ALONE WHEN HE GETS OLD, WITHOUT US. MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER WAS TESTED FOR CF WHEN SHE WAS BORN, THEY TESTED HER CORD BLOOD, AND WE FOUND OUT WHEN SHE WAS 6 DAYS OLD. I WAS UPSET BUT SOMETHING HAD TOLD ME FROM THE DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT THAT THIS BABY HAD IT TO. I HAVE THE HARDEST TIME NOT BLAMING MYSELF. MY GIRLS RIGHT NOW ARE 8 AND 3. THEY ARE MY WORLD. WE FIGHT CF, AND I AM A BIT OF A GERMAPHOBE NOW SO I TRY TO KEEP THEM AWAY FROM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I BET A LOT OF YOU DONT PANIC WHEN YOU HEAR A COUGH FROM SOMEONE AROUND YOU, WELL I DO. WHAT IF THAT PERSON HAS SOMETHING MY GIRLS CANT FIGHT OFF. I NEVER REALIZED THAT A COUGH COULD SCARE ME SO MUCH, AND IT DOES. NOW I DONT ASK WHY ME, WHY MY GIRLS, I JUST TAKE CARE OF THEM, THIS IS MY JOB, MY DUTY AS A MOTHER AND I WANT LET MY BABIES DOWN. WHATEVER I HAVE TO DO FOR THEM, I WILL. TO TRINITY AND PYPER IF YOU ONLY NEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU TWO SO MUCH. YOU GUYS ARE THE REASON I BREATHE. YOU TWO ARE MY ROCK ALONG WITH MY HUBBY. SO I NO LONGER ASK WHY B/C MY BABIES MAKE ME FEEL COMPLETE. WE ARE NORMAL, I AM JUST A MOM DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES.
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