OK, MY BABIES HAVE BEEN SICK NOW FOR ALMOST 8 WEEKS NOW. I CAN USUALLY GET THEM BETTER IN JUST A FEW DAYS, SO THIS IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME. TOMORROW, WE ARE GOING TO SEE OUR PULMONOLOGIST- DR. ASHE AND PRAY HE SENDS US BACK HOME. THE THOUGHTS OF BEING PUT IN THE HOSPITAL AND LEAVING MY OTHER DAUGHTER BREAKS MY HEART. I AM PUTTING MY FAITH IN GODS HANDS AND WE ARE COMING HOME TOMORROW AND MY BABIES ARE GOING TO GET BETTER.
ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE ARE MY GIRLS, MY HUBBY IS THE FIRST. MY HEART AND SOUL IS THIS FAMILY AND TAKING CARE OF US. I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING SOMETHING WRONG B/C I CANT GET THEM BETTER. I AM A FIGHTER, AND I DONT LIKE LOSING AND I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING FOR MY GIRLS. IN THE LAST YEAR, I HAVE WATCHED A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY LOSE HIS BATTLE WITH CYSTIC FIBROSIS AT 7 YEARS OF AGE AND I HAVE BEEN READING POST ABOUT OTHERS WHO ARE NOT DOING GOOD. WHY? THIS DISEASE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE OR FAMILIES.
TODAY, I WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW, IT WAS FULL TIME, CANT DO FULL TIME B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME. I TALKED TO GOD THE OTHER DAY AND I ASK HIM WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING, THEN THE NEXT DAY, THIS JOB CALL. ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I GOT THREE JOB CALLS, AS SOON AS I WOULD TURN ONE DOWN, ANOTHER WOULD COME. I WAS TALKING TO GOD THEN. I THINK GOD HAS A JOB IN STORE FOR ME, AND MY HUSBAND AND ME JUST WANT ME HOME SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR BABIES. I HAVE PUT IN FOR TONS OF PART TIME JOBS AND NOT ONE CALL ON THOSE BUT A FULL TIME JOB, I AM GETTING CALLS LEFT AND RIGHT. WOW!!!!! I MISS WORKING, BUT MY GIRLS HEALTH AND WELL BEING MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING.
I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS, OUR FAMILY IS GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. I AM TAKING IT STEP BY STEP. RIGHT NOW, PYPER IS PLAYING HARD, RIDING HER PINK TRICYCLE IN THE HOUSE, SO I FEEL SHE IS DOING OK, JUST A BAD COUGH. I LIVE, I BREATHE, I EAT, I CRY, I STRUGGLE, I FIGHT FOR THIS FAMILY.
A MOTHERS FIGHTING TO KEEP HER GIRLS HEALTHY!!!!
MARTIE T.
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