WHAT REALLY MATTERS!!!!!

DO YOU EVER WONDER ABOUT THE IMPORTANT STUFF?  WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT, WHAT MATTERS THE MOST TO YOU?  HERE LATELY, WE HAVE BEEN SO WORRIED ABOUT FINANCES AND HOW ARE WE GOING TO BE ABLE TO PAY THIS AND THAT.  MY HUSBAND IS DOING EVERYTHING BY HIMSELF.  I DONT WORK, SO I CAN STAY AT HOME WITH OUR KIDS AND TAKE CARE OF THEM.  I FEEL LIKE I AM LETTING HIM DOWN, B/C I DONT WORK.  HE JUST SAYS DONT WORRY, WORRYING MAKES THINGS WORSE AND IT DOESNT HELP.  I AM A WOMAN, A MOTHER AND A WIFE, AND I WORRY ALL THE TIME.  STRESS GETS THE BEST OF ME.  I WORRY ABOUT BEING ABLE TO KEEP GREAT CREDIT, AND DOES THAT EVEN MATTER THIS DAY AND TIME.  WHAT MATTERS THE MOST TO ME IS MY HUSBAND AND MY BABIES AND MAKING SURE THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF. 

GREG AND I WERE TALKING TONIGHT AND I SAID GREG IF IT COMES DOWN TO FOOD FOR OUR KIDS OR A CREDIT CARD PAYMENT, YOU KNOW WHICH IS GOING TO WIN AND HE SAID I KNOW...  WE ARE TWO PARENTS, WITH TWO KIDS WITH CF, I AM A TYPE 1 DIABETIC, AND WHY DOES MY HUSBAND NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF.  IF I THINK ABOUT IT, I GET MAD AND THEN I SAY TO MYSELF, GOD WOULDNT WANT YOU TO BE MAD.  THERE IS A REASON WE HAVE TO STRUGGLE, MAYBE IT IS MAKING US STRONGER, MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE WE MADE STUPID MISTAKES WITH OUR MONEY IN THE PAST.  GOD WE UNDERSTAND NOW... 

I REALIZE MORE THAN EVER NOW THAT THIS FAMILY, MY HUBBY, AND MY GIRLS ARE WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME.  DOES THIS OTHER STUFF EVEN MATTER.  THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT IT DOES MATTER, BUT IT DOESNT EVEN RANK CLOSE TO THE 3 MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE TO ME.  THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO BE FINE.  WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT...  WE HAVE LOVE, WE HAVE EACH OTHER AND I KNOW THAT GOD IS WATCHING OVER US. 

DEAR GOD, I ASK PRETTY MUCH EVERYDAY FOR YOU TO TAKE CARE OF US AND TO CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS.   PLEASE CONTINUE TO MAKE SURE WE ARE OK, AND THAT YOU GIVE THOSE THE WISDOM THEY NEED TO CURE THIS DISEASE. 

THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY FAMILY IS SO REAL AND SO STRONG.   I WAS WITH MY DAD AND STEP MOM TODAY IN WALMART AND MY YOUNGEST PYPER SAW A TOY AND MADE THAT SOUND, THE ONE WERE YOU KNOW SHE IS SO EXCITED JUST TO SEE IT SITTING ON THE SHELF AND MY DAD SAID WOULDNT YOU LOVE TO FEEL THAT FEELING AGAIN AND I SAID I DO EVERYDAY. I GET TO SEE THE EXCITEMENT ON THERE FACE AND I LIVE IT THROUGH THEM.  I FEEL THERE JOY, JUST BY SEEING THERE FACE, AND THERE EXCITEMENT.  SO DADDY, I DO FEEL IT.  I HAVE FELT THAT JOY EVERYDAY NOW FOR ALMOST 9 YEARS B/C THAT IS WHEN I HAD MY FIRST DAUGHTER.  THAT JOY HAS NOT WENT AWAY AND IT NEVER WILL. 

MARTIE