TIS THE SEASON TO LOVE

SITTING HERE WITH MY HUBBY, WHILE THE GIRLS ARE HOPEFULLY IN BED.  IT IS ALMOST THAT TIME AGAIN AND I CANT GET EVERYTHING DONE.  IT IS TO COLD TO TAKE THE GIRLS OUT AND FINISH WHAT I NEED TO DO, AND TO COLD FOR ME TO GO OUT AND SHOP. 

TRINITY IS FEELING GOOD, HOPEFULLY WE CONTINUE WITH THIS AND PYPER IS, I DON'T KNOW.  SHE HAS CRIED A LOT TODAY AND SHE IS JUST ILL.  I REALLY DON'T THINK SHE HAS EVER GOT BETTER FROM THEM SAYING SHE HAS ASTHMA.  SHE STILL TELLS ME HER CHEST HURTS.  I LISTEN AND DON'T HEAR ANYTHING, SO I GUESS THAT IS A GOOD THING BUT STILL WORRIED ABOUT HER.  I WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN IT IS 75 DEGREES AND WARM.  SPRING TIME CAN'T GET HERE FAST ENOUGH.  I REALLY WOULD LOVE TO MOVE TO THE BEACH AND BE AROUND SALT WATER ALL DAY.  MY GIRLS DO SO GOOD WHEN WE ARE AT THE BEACH. 

I HAVE BEEN ILL AND KINDA DEPRESSED HERE LATELY, AND TALKING A LOT TO GOD..  DO ANY OF YOU EVER ASK HIM, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO??  LIKE I SAID ONE DAY IN MY POST, I NEED TO SIT ON SANTA'S LAP AND ASK HIM, FOR THE ONE GIFT I WANT SO BAD.  I NEED 2 MORE YEARS AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS...  THAT WAY THEY GET EVERYTHING THEY NEED AND I KNOW THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF.  DAYCARE IS NO OPTION FOR US... 

I WANT ALL OF YOU TO THINK ABOUT CHRISTMAS AND WHAT IT MEANS TO YOU.  TO ME, IT MEANS BEING WITH MY FAMILY..  MY GIRLS AND HUSBAND ARE MY WORLD.. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF MY HUSBAND EVEN KNOWS WHAT HE MEANS TO ME.  WHAT I SACRIFICE FOR HIM, AND FOR OUR GIRLS.  WOULD I CHANGE ANY OF IT, NO I WOULDNT BUT SOMETIMES I WONDER.  I STAY AT HOME, I CLEAN, I COOK, I DO TREATMENTS, VEST, WASH NEBULIZERS, GIVE MEDICINES, VITAMINS, FOOD, ETC, ETC, ETC.  TO ME, THIS IS MY JOB, MY 7 TO WHATEVER TIME I FINALLY CRASH JOB AND I LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT, EVERY SECOND OF IT.  DO I COMPLAIN SOMETIMES, MY GOD YES, WHO DOESNT.  MY HUSBAND SAYS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK FOR ME, IS THE GROCERYSTORE, THAT IS MY OUT.. I AM AT THE STORE FOR 30 MINUTES AND I MISS THEM SO MUCH, THAT I RUSH HOME JUST TO HEAR THEM FIGHTING. THAT IS LOVE, I MUST SAY.  THEY ARE MY MONSTERS.....

REMEMBER TO SPEND AS MUCH TIME WITH YOUR LOVED ONES, AND TO LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY..  CHRISTMAS ISNT THE TIME FOR GIVING BUT THE TIME TO SPEND WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE.  THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A FIRST FOR ME, I COULDNT BUY EVERYTHING I WANTED TO, AND I GOT TO DO A LOT OF WINDOW SHOPPING.  I DID OK, BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT WAS A DOWNER...  I AM MAKING SACRIFICES FOR US, FOR THIS FAMILY AND SO IS GREG AND SO ARE MY GIRLS BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE, WE WILL NEVER SACRIFICE ANYTHING THAT OUR GIRLS NEED.  THEY COME FIRST IN THIS HOUSE AND ALWAYS WILL.... 

GOT TO GO BECAUSE LITTLE PYPER IS CRYING.. SHE FEELS MOMMA SHOULDNT HAVE AN OUT, THAT MY WORLD HAS TO STOP FOR HER.  LOL

TIS THE SEASON TO LOVE,



MARTIE T.