ONE PROUD MOMMA

I AM SITTING HERE WATCHING TV WITH PYPER AND TRINS IS AT SCHOOL.  DO ANY OF YOU FEEL LOST WHEN YOUR CHILD IS NOT HOME, DO YOU MISS THEM SO MUCH, WELL I DO..  I KNOW WHEN SHE GETS HOME IT WILL BE FIGHTING, AND TRYING TO DO ALL OUR AFTERNOON STUFF DONE, BUT I WOULD RATHER DO THAT, THAN ANYTHING ELSE. 

THIS MORNING WHEN TAKING TRINS TO SCHOOL, I LOOKED AROUND THE CAR AND WAS SO PROUD OF MY GIRLS.  TRINS IS ALL SMILES B/C PYPER AND ME ARE DANCING ALL THE WAY TO SCHOOL, BUT ONCE WE GET IN THE SCHOOL PARKING LOT, THAT HAS TO STOP B/C SHE IS TO HIP FOR HER MOM TO DANCE.  I LOOKED IN THE BACKSEAT ONE TIME AND PYPER IS NOW IN A BIG GIRL CAR SEAT AND IT JUST MADE ME SMILE SO MUCH.  THE LOOKS ON THERE FACES, THE SMILES, WITH TEETH AND WITHOUT JUST LIGHTS UP MY DAY. 

BEFORE I HAD KIDS, I NEVER EVEN REALIZED WHAT LOVE WAS ALL ABOUT.  WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, I WAS SO EXCITED.  I REMEMBER SAYING BEFORE TRINS GOT HERE THAT SHE WOULD NOT SLEEP IN MY BED, I WAS NOT GOING TO BREASTFEED, SHE WOULD GO TO DAYCARE.  BOY, LOOK AT ME NOW, IF SHE DOES FALL ASLEEP IN HER BED, MOST OF THE TIME, I GO AND MOVE HER INTO OUR BED.  I LOVE WAKING UP AND LOOKING OVER AND SEEING PYPER, TRINITY, THE DOG AND THEN MY HUBBY.  I DID ALL THE THINGS I SAID I NEVER WOULD AND I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT.  BEING A STAY AT HOME MOM IS A GIFT.  I WOULDNT CHANGE A THING.  YES MONEY IS TIGHT, AND THERE ARE TIMES WE DONT KNOW HOW WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT BUT THIS IS MY LIFE AND I LOVE EVERY SECOND.  FAMILY ALWAYS SAYS TO US, YOU NEED TO SAVE, PUT MONEY AWAY FOR HARD TIMES, GET OUT OF DEBT AND YES WE AGREE, BUT WITH ONE INCOME WE CANT DO THAT.  ALL OUR MONEY TAKES CARE OF US..... 

CYSTIC FIBROSIS IS NOT GOING TO STOP US. THIS FAMILY OF 4 IS GOING TO KICK CF'S ASS....  MY BABIES ARE GOING TO GROW TO BE OLD, AND I AM PRAYING I AM AROUND TO WATCH EVERY SECOND OF IT...  I ALWAYS SAY, LOVE YOUR BABIES, BE THERE FOR THEM, WATCH THEM GROW AND SMILE.   DONT BE A DEADBEAT PARENT WHO DOESNT CARE.  GOD GAVE YOU THESE BABIES FOR A REASON AND I KNOW WHY HE GAVE ME MINE.  TRINITY AND PYPER, I LOVE YOU TWO SO MUCH IT HURTS AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU TWO AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU THROUGH THICK AND THEN. 

ONE PROUD MOMMA,

MARTIE