A CHANGE IS COMING

I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS WERE I FEEL LIKE CRAP....  MY SINUSES ARE ACTING UP AND I JUST FEEL BAD.  MY GIRLS ARE DOING GREAT..  WE ARE IN 3RD GRADE NOW WITH MY OLDEST, AND GOD YOU HAVE TAKEN CARE OF HER SO MUCH AND I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE DOING THIS AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THANK YOU VERY MUCH.  I WISH I COULD TELL YOU FACE TO FACE BUT I CAN'T.. 

I AM SITTING HERE WATCHING TV WITH MY LITTLE ONE RIGHT BESIDE OF ME AND SHE IS MY LITTLE MONSTER.  SHE IS EVERYWHERE I GO, I TURN AND THERE SHE IS.  SOMETIMES IT DRIVES ME CRAZY, B/C I CAN'T EVEN GO TO THE BATHROOM WITHOUT HER.  BUT ONE OF THESE DAYS I AM GOING TO MISS THAT B/C ONE DAY SHE IS NOT GOING TO WANT TO BE SEEN WITH ME AND IF I THINK ABOUT THAT IT HURTS. 

NEXT WEEK IS THE START OF ME JUST BEING HOME WITH MY BABIES, I AM SO EXCITED AND SO SCARED ALL AT THE SAME TIME.  DID I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION, DID I JUST HURT OUR FAMILY.  I AM READY FOR WHATEVER GOD HAS TO OFFER ME.  I WANT TO BE HERE FOR MY GIRLS.  I AM READY TO GO HAVE LUNCH WITH MY BABY, OR GO ON FIELD TRIPS.  I LOVE ALL MY BABIES I KEEP, BUT MOMMA NEEDS TO GET HERSELF BACK, AND GIVE MYSELF MORE TO MY GIRLS.  THEY NEED ME AND I NEED THEM.  ALSO I AM GOING TO TRY AND START TO GET MY BABIES OUT OF MY BED, MY OLDEST IS 8 AND MY YOUNGEST IS 3.  I AM HAVING CHEST PAIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.  IT IS TIME FOR ME AND GREG TO GET OUR BED BACK. 

EVERYONE SAY A PRAYER FOR THE TURNER'S BECAUSE OUR WORLDS ARE GETTING READY TO CHANGE.  WISH US LUCK B/C WE NEED IT AND SAY A LITTLE EXTRA PRAYER FOR MY HUBBY. HE IS THE STRONGEST AND BEST MAN EVER.  HE DOES SO MUCH FOR US AND I HOPE HE KNOWS HOW VERY MUCH THAT MEANS TO ME. 

I LOVE MY HUBBY AND MY GIRLS MORE THAN ANYTHING.  THEY ARE THE REASON I BREATHE!!!!

MARTIE