MY MOTHER IS DRIVING ME BANANAS. BUT I DO LOVE HER.....

OK JUST HERE TO VENT TODAY. I WAS TOLD I AM INSENSITIVE.  I AM NOT, I HAVE A LOT ON MY PLATE AND FORGIVE ME IF I DONT WANT TO HAVE A PITY PARTY B/C A 17 YEAR OLD GIRL IS PREGNANT AND THE BABY DADDY IS A CONVICTED FELON, AND SHE IS GETTING A FREE PREGNANCY THROUGH MEDICAID AND WIC AND GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT ELSE.  DONT TAKE IT THAT I DONT THINK SHE DESERVES IT, BUT I JUST GET SO ILL B/C I KNOW WHAT MY HUSBAND IS DOING TO MAKE IT FOR US.  MY MOTHER AND I ARE ABOUT TO RIP EACH OTHERS HEADS OFF TODAY.  I KNOW YOU SHOULD RESPECT YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER AND I DO, BUT B/C I TOLD MY MOM WHAT I THINK ABOUT THE SITUATION, I DON'T APPRECIATE ALL SHE DOES FOR US AND NOW I TALK ABOUT HER LIKE SHE IS A DOG.  LETS GET ONE THING STRAIGHT, I LOVE MY MOTHER, AND I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR ALL SHE DOES.  SHE JUST CALLED MY HUSBAND AND SAID SHE IS SO SICK OF ME AND MY SISTER TALKING ABOUT HER.  WHAT IS SHE TALKING ABOUT.. WE DONT TALK ABOUT HER.  WE WORRY ABOUT HER, THERE IS A DIFFERENCE. 

I HAVE SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, IF I NEED TO FLIP OR JUST VENT, WHY CAN'T U LISTEN. 

ANOTHER THING, I FEEL LIKE SOMETIMES THAT PEOPLE THINK MY KIDS ARE CIRCUS FREAKS.  OUT IN PUBLIC IF THEY ARE EATING, LETS SCREAM IT ACROSS THE PLACE WE ARE AT, DONT THEY NEED THERE MEDICINE, DONT THEY NEED ENZYMES, DONT THEY NEED THIS, AND WHEN SOMEONE LOOKS, OH THEY HAVE CYSTIC FIBROSIS.  THAT PERSON DOESNT NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY CHILDS LIFE.  I GOT THIS UNDER CONTROL.  I AM A GREAT MOTHER AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR MY KIDS.  MAYBE I JUST NEED TO BLOW UP AND THEN MAYBE PEOPLE WILL SEE WHAT IS ALL GOING ON IN OUR LIVES. 

I AM SORRY TO SOUND LIKE AN UNSENSITIVE BITCH, BUT I AM NOT. I AM A VERY SENSITIVE PERSON, BUT JUST LISTEN TO ME.  UNDERSTAND WERE I AM COMING FROM.  I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY IN MY LIFE.  I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR WHAT PEOPLE DO FOR US, MORE THAN THEY PROBABLY KNOW. 

JUST LISTEN... THAT IS IT.  DONT THINK I NEED HELP B/C FOR ONCE IN 9 YEARS OF BEING A MOTHER, I HAVE FINALLY LOST IT AND FLIPPED.  YESTERDAY, WITH MY DAD AND DEANN, WE TALKED AND LAUGHED AND JUST HAD A GOOD CONVERSATION.  WHY CANT MY MOM DO THAT.  JUST LISTEN, JUST WORRY ABOUT US, AND JUST KEEP BEING A GRANDMOTHER TO MY BABIES.  THAT IS ALL I WANT.  UNDERSTAND WHEN WE SAY STUFF, WE LOVE YOU AND WORRY ABOUT YOU. 

SORRY TO VENT
MARTIE