LOVE AND STRESS

WE ARE TWO WEEKS DOWN WITH THE PUMP AND COUNTING.  MY PYPER IS DOING OK OTHER THAN WHEN WE CHANGE OUT THE SIGHT AND SHE SCREAMS AND CRYS.  I PRAY WITH TIME IT GETS A LOT EASIER. 

MY TRINITY IS GETTING READY TO BE DONE WITH HER 3RD GRADE YEAR.  MY BABY IS GROWING UP SO FAST.  I AM SO PROUD OF HER AND ALL SHE DOES. 

MY GIRLS ARE SO STRONG... THEY MAKE ME STRONGER..

THE TURNER'S SEEM TO BE DOING OK RIGHT NOW, OTHER THAN I CAN'T GET RID OF THIS COUGH TRINITY HAS.  PRAYING ONCE SCHOOL IS OVER, WE CAN KICK THE COUGHS BUTT AND GET IT OUT OF HER. 

HERE LATELY, I HAVENT BEEN MYSELF B/C WITH ALL THAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH PYPER AND BEING DIAGNOSED WITH DIABETES, AND JUST STRESS.  I FEEL I HAVE BEEN SO UPTIGHT WITH GREG.. I THINK I AM A BIT NEUROTIC.. YES I ADMIT IT... I WANT THINGS DONE A CERTAIN WAY, AND I THINK SOMETIMES I DRIVE HIM NUTS WITH MY CRAZINESS.

I FREAK OUT OVER A COUGH, SOMEONE WITH A RUNNY NOSE, ANYTHING AND MY HUBBY IS JUST SO LAYED BACK.  I KNOW I AM THE STAY AT HOME MOM AND ALL THE WORRY AND STRESS SHOULD PROBABLY BE ON ME BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD IS ON MY SHOULDERS AND EVERYBODY ELSE GETS TO RELAX. 

THE OTHER DAY ONE OF MY FRIENDS SAYS QUIT STRESSING, RELAX AND ASK ME IF I NEEDED A XANAX.  I ASK MY HUBBY ONCE I GOT HOME IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.  HE SAID NO, BUT YOU NEVER RELAX.. YOU ARE CONSTANTLY WORRIED AND STRESSED OUT ALL THE TIME.. MAYBE THEY ARE RIGHT BUT HOW DO YOU CHANGE THAT.  IF I LET MY GUARD DOWN, SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN..

ALSO HERE LATELY, I FEEL LIKE GREG IS STRESSING MORE.  HE STRESSES DIFFERENT THAN I DO.. HE SAID THE OTHER DAY, SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THE GIRLS WOULD BE BETTER OFF IF I OFF'D MYSELF.  I SAID WHAT... WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT. HE SAID THEY WOULDNT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY OR ANYTHING. MY LIFE INSURANCE WOULD TAKE CARE OF THEM.. I SAID, WELL WHAT ABOUT ME.  YES WE HAVE A STRESSFUL LIFE, BUT I WOULD LOSE IT ALL FOR MY HUBBY AND MY GIRLS.  HE SAID, I WOULDNT DO THAT, BUT SOMETIMES I THINK IT WOULD MAKE LIFE EASIER.  LIFE IS SUPPOSE TO BE HARD, IF IT WASNT THEN WHAT KIND OF LESSONS WOULD WE LEARN FROM ALL THIS. 

GODS LESSONS ARE GREAT LESSONS.  HE DOESN'T GIVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE.  SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE HE HAS MORE FAITH IN ME THAN I DO BUT I GOT THIS AND SO DOES MY HUBBY.  THIS AM ON THE RADIO, THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT REASONS PEOPLE GET A DIVORCE, AND ONE WAS IF THERE IS A STAY AT HOME MOM IN THE HOUSE, THE HUSBAND IS DOING ALL THE WORK AND HE FEELS ALONE AND LIKE HE HAS SO MUCH ON HIM.  DOES MY HUBBY FEEL THAT WAY????  I PRAY HE KNOWS, I LOVE HIM DEARLY AND WE ARE WORKING TOGETHER TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT.  HE WORKS OUT OF THE HOME AND I WORK IN THE HOME... I MAY NOT GET PAID BUT MY JOB IS JUST AS HARD IF NOT HARDER THAN SOMEONE WHO WORKS OUTSIDE OF THEIR HOME. 

I LOVE YOU GG AND ALL YOU DO FOR US... TRINITY AND PYPER, MOMMA LOVES YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND I WILL NEVER STOP FIGHTING FOR YOU TWO...

MARTIE