YESTERDAY, I WENT TO CHECK THE MAIL, WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE START OF OUR CHRISTMAS CARDS, I RIPPED IT OPEN AND THIS IS WHAT THE CARD SAID ?
WHAT IF YOU'D RATHER CATCH A FEW BREAKS ONCE IN AWHILE? IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK? AT SOME POINT, YOU'D THINK YOU'D BE ENTITLED TO A FREE PASS OR TWO: SKIP THIS CHALLENGE. AVOID THAT CRISIS. DELETE THOSE PROBLEMS. IT'S NOT THAT YOU'RE NOT STRONG OR THAT YOU DON'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO GET THROUGH THIS. YOU ARE, YOU DO, AND YOU WILL. BUT YOU'VE BUILT ENOUGH CHARACTER ALREADY, AND IT'S TIME FOR THINGS TO LIGHEN UP A LITTLE! I KNOW IT'S NOT REALLY MY CALL, BUT IF I WERE IN CHARGE OF LIFE'S WHEEL OF FURTUNE, YOU'D GET A FREE SPIN. AND I'D BE RIGHT THERE, CHEERING YOU ON!
I JUST CRIED.. I CALLED MY HUSBAND CRYING AND HE COULDNT UNDERSTAND A WORD I WAS SAYING. FRIENDS SENT THAT CARD AND WHAT THEY DID FOR US IS SIMPLE UNEXPLAINABLE. THE LAST 9 WEEKS, I HAVE BEEN CRYING SO MUCH, PRAYING SO MUCH, JUST TALKING TO GOD, TELLING HIM THAT I NEED TO BE HOME WITH OUR BABIES, ATLEAST FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER, PRAYING THAT WE WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE IT, PRAYING FOR MY HUBBY AND HIS JOB, PRAYING SO HARD FOR MY GIRLS TO BE HEALTHY, A CURE FOR CF. EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING, GOD IS WORKING SO STAND TO THE SIDE AND LET HIM DO HIS JOB. GOD, YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I AM SO GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE AND SO GREATFUL TO HAVE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES THAT LOVE US...
OUR CHRISTMAS TREE IS UP, IT IS TIME FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER AND MY GIRLS SEEM TO BE FEELING BETTER AND FOR THAT I AM SO HAPPY.. EVERYONE BE SURE THAT YOU ARE THANKFUL FOR SOMETHING.. GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND, KIDS, AND FAMILY. HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EACH OF YOU AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS.
EXTREMELY GREATFUL,
MARTIE T.
ME AND MY GIRLS
THE LOVES OF MY LIFE
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
i am starting to stress out!!!!!
OK, MY BABIES HAVE BEEN SICK NOW FOR ALMOST 8 WEEKS NOW. I CAN USUALLY GET THEM BETTER IN JUST A FEW DAYS, SO THIS IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME. TOMORROW, WE ARE GOING TO SEE OUR PULMONOLOGIST- DR. ASHE AND PRAY HE SENDS US BACK HOME. THE THOUGHTS OF BEING PUT IN THE HOSPITAL AND LEAVING MY OTHER DAUGHTER BREAKS MY HEART. I AM PUTTING MY FAITH IN GODS HANDS AND WE ARE COMING HOME TOMORROW AND MY BABIES ARE GOING TO GET BETTER.
ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE ARE MY GIRLS, MY HUBBY IS THE FIRST. MY HEART AND SOUL IS THIS FAMILY AND TAKING CARE OF US. I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING SOMETHING WRONG B/C I CANT GET THEM BETTER. I AM A FIGHTER, AND I DONT LIKE LOSING AND I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING FOR MY GIRLS. IN THE LAST YEAR, I HAVE WATCHED A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY LOSE HIS BATTLE WITH CYSTIC FIBROSIS AT 7 YEARS OF AGE AND I HAVE BEEN READING POST ABOUT OTHERS WHO ARE NOT DOING GOOD. WHY? THIS DISEASE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE OR FAMILIES.
TODAY, I WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW, IT WAS FULL TIME, CANT DO FULL TIME B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME. I TALKED TO GOD THE OTHER DAY AND I ASK HIM WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING, THEN THE NEXT DAY, THIS JOB CALL. ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I GOT THREE JOB CALLS, AS SOON AS I WOULD TURN ONE DOWN, ANOTHER WOULD COME. I WAS TALKING TO GOD THEN. I THINK GOD HAS A JOB IN STORE FOR ME, AND MY HUSBAND AND ME JUST WANT ME HOME SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR BABIES. I HAVE PUT IN FOR TONS OF PART TIME JOBS AND NOT ONE CALL ON THOSE BUT A FULL TIME JOB, I AM GETTING CALLS LEFT AND RIGHT. WOW!!!!! I MISS WORKING, BUT MY GIRLS HEALTH AND WELL BEING MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING.
I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS, OUR FAMILY IS GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. I AM TAKING IT STEP BY STEP. RIGHT NOW, PYPER IS PLAYING HARD, RIDING HER PINK TRICYCLE IN THE HOUSE, SO I FEEL SHE IS DOING OK, JUST A BAD COUGH. I LIVE, I BREATHE, I EAT, I CRY, I STRUGGLE, I FIGHT FOR THIS FAMILY.
A MOTHERS FIGHTING TO KEEP HER GIRLS HEALTHY!!!!
MARTIE T.
ONE OF THE LOVES OF MY LIFE ARE MY GIRLS, MY HUBBY IS THE FIRST. MY HEART AND SOUL IS THIS FAMILY AND TAKING CARE OF US. I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING SOMETHING WRONG B/C I CANT GET THEM BETTER. I AM A FIGHTER, AND I DONT LIKE LOSING AND I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING FOR MY GIRLS. IN THE LAST YEAR, I HAVE WATCHED A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY LOSE HIS BATTLE WITH CYSTIC FIBROSIS AT 7 YEARS OF AGE AND I HAVE BEEN READING POST ABOUT OTHERS WHO ARE NOT DOING GOOD. WHY? THIS DISEASE SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE OR FAMILIES.
TODAY, I WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW, IT WAS FULL TIME, CANT DO FULL TIME B/C MY GIRLS NEED ME. I TALKED TO GOD THE OTHER DAY AND I ASK HIM WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO BE DOING, THEN THE NEXT DAY, THIS JOB CALL. ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I GOT THREE JOB CALLS, AS SOON AS I WOULD TURN ONE DOWN, ANOTHER WOULD COME. I WAS TALKING TO GOD THEN. I THINK GOD HAS A JOB IN STORE FOR ME, AND MY HUSBAND AND ME JUST WANT ME HOME SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR BABIES. I HAVE PUT IN FOR TONS OF PART TIME JOBS AND NOT ONE CALL ON THOSE BUT A FULL TIME JOB, I AM GETTING CALLS LEFT AND RIGHT. WOW!!!!! I MISS WORKING, BUT MY GIRLS HEALTH AND WELL BEING MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING.
I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS, OUR FAMILY IS GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. I AM TAKING IT STEP BY STEP. RIGHT NOW, PYPER IS PLAYING HARD, RIDING HER PINK TRICYCLE IN THE HOUSE, SO I FEEL SHE IS DOING OK, JUST A BAD COUGH. I LIVE, I BREATHE, I EAT, I CRY, I STRUGGLE, I FIGHT FOR THIS FAMILY.
A MOTHERS FIGHTING TO KEEP HER GIRLS HEALTHY!!!!
MARTIE T.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
MY BABIES ARE SICK, AND I CANT SEEM TO MAKE THEM BETTER!!!!!
WELL MY BABIES ARE SICK AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I FEEL LIKE I CANT GET THEM BETTER. PYPER HAS 10 MORE DAYS OF TOBI AND SHE FINISHED HER ANTIBIOTIC 5 DAYS AGO, AND SHE SEEMED TO BE DOING BETTER, THEN MY OLDEST STARTED COUGHING. OMG, I AM SO STRESSED OUT. MY BABIES ARE MY WORLD. PYPER HAS NOW STARTED COUGHING AGAIN, AND I WANT THEM BETTER. PYPER HAD PSEUDOMONAS ON HER LAST CULTURE, TRINS DID NOT. LORD, HELP ME, WE HAVENT HAD A HOSPITAL STAY IN 8 YEARS, AND I WANT TO KEEP IT THAT WAY. PLEASE GOD, I AM BEGGIN YOU TO MAKE MY BABIES BETTER. GIVE IT TO ME, I WILL TAKE IT. MY BABIES, DONT DESERVE THIS.
RIGHT NOW, THEY ARE IN BED, AND THE SOUND OF A COUGH COMING DOWN THE HALLWAY BREAKS MY HEART. I WANT THEM BETTER. I KNOW SOMETIMES THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO BUT GET A TUNE UP IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT GOD, YOU CAN DO SOMETHING, YOU CAN MAKE THEM BETTER. THAT IS ALL I WANT. I AM SO STRESSED OUT. WE ARE WORRIED ABOUT MONEY, WHO IS GOING TO KEEP THE GIRLS IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK, THE COST OF MEDICINES, JUST EVERYTHING. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT PRAY, PRAY FOR HOPE, PRAY FOR SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WERE I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY, PRAY THAT I CAN CONTINUE TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY BABIES, PRAY FOR MY HUSBAND TO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TAKING CARE OF US, PRAYING FOR MY BABIES, GOD I AM PRAYING SO HARD FOR YOU TO MAKE THEM BETTER.
WE HAVE BEEN GOING TO CHURCH THE LAST 6 WEEKS, AND THE DEVIL IS REALLY WORKING HARD TO GET US OUT OF THERE. DEVIL, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN. EVERYONE SAYS KEEP FIGHTING, HE WILL SOON GIVE UP, BUT I FEEL LIKE HE IS MESSING WITH MY BABIES. DO I STOP, DO I WALK AWAY, DO I GO BACK TO WHEN WE JUST SIT AT HOME ON SUNDAYS, AND DID NOTHING. WILL MY BABIES GET BETTER. THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS US TO DO, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME STOP, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME GIVE UP. YOU WANT WIN THIS..... GOD, MY ONE AND ONLY PRAYER TONIGHT IS TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES, MAKE THEM BETTER, THEY ARE STILL PLAYING HARD BUT I KNOW THEY ARE NOT 100%. GET THE GERMS AND BACTERIA OUT OF THERE BODIES AND OUT OF MY HOUSE. LORD MAKE THEM BETTER, PLEASE MAKE THEM BETTER AT HOME WITH ME AND THERE DADDY. WE HAVE A BIRTHDAY COMING UP NEXT WEEKEND, MY BABY WILL BE 4 YEARS OLD. PLEASE GOD DO THIS FOR ME. IF THEY ARE NOT 100%, MOMMA IS NOT EITHER. I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT THEM.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE HEAR MY PRAYER, AND PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US... ONE MORE THING DEAR GOD, CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY BABIES AND ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE OR WHO HAVE FOUGHT THIS DISEASE...... PLEASE!!!!!!!
STRESSED OUT MOMMA,
MARTIE T.
RIGHT NOW, THEY ARE IN BED, AND THE SOUND OF A COUGH COMING DOWN THE HALLWAY BREAKS MY HEART. I WANT THEM BETTER. I KNOW SOMETIMES THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO BUT GET A TUNE UP IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT GOD, YOU CAN DO SOMETHING, YOU CAN MAKE THEM BETTER. THAT IS ALL I WANT. I AM SO STRESSED OUT. WE ARE WORRIED ABOUT MONEY, WHO IS GOING TO KEEP THE GIRLS IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK, THE COST OF MEDICINES, JUST EVERYTHING. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT PRAY, PRAY FOR HOPE, PRAY FOR SOMETHING TO MAKE IT WERE I DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY, PRAY THAT I CAN CONTINUE TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY BABIES, PRAY FOR MY HUSBAND TO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TAKING CARE OF US, PRAYING FOR MY BABIES, GOD I AM PRAYING SO HARD FOR YOU TO MAKE THEM BETTER.
WE HAVE BEEN GOING TO CHURCH THE LAST 6 WEEKS, AND THE DEVIL IS REALLY WORKING HARD TO GET US OUT OF THERE. DEVIL, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN. EVERYONE SAYS KEEP FIGHTING, HE WILL SOON GIVE UP, BUT I FEEL LIKE HE IS MESSING WITH MY BABIES. DO I STOP, DO I WALK AWAY, DO I GO BACK TO WHEN WE JUST SIT AT HOME ON SUNDAYS, AND DID NOTHING. WILL MY BABIES GET BETTER. THIS IS WHAT HE WANTS US TO DO, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME STOP, HE WANTS TO MAKE ME GIVE UP. YOU WANT WIN THIS..... GOD, MY ONE AND ONLY PRAYER TONIGHT IS TO TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES, MAKE THEM BETTER, THEY ARE STILL PLAYING HARD BUT I KNOW THEY ARE NOT 100%. GET THE GERMS AND BACTERIA OUT OF THERE BODIES AND OUT OF MY HOUSE. LORD MAKE THEM BETTER, PLEASE MAKE THEM BETTER AT HOME WITH ME AND THERE DADDY. WE HAVE A BIRTHDAY COMING UP NEXT WEEKEND, MY BABY WILL BE 4 YEARS OLD. PLEASE GOD DO THIS FOR ME. IF THEY ARE NOT 100%, MOMMA IS NOT EITHER. I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT THEM.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE HEAR MY PRAYER, AND PLEASE DONT GIVE UP ON US... ONE MORE THING DEAR GOD, CURE CYSTIC FIBROSIS FOR MY BABIES AND ALL THE OTHERS OUT THERE FIGHTING THIS DISEASE OR WHO HAVE FOUGHT THIS DISEASE...... PLEASE!!!!!!!
STRESSED OUT MOMMA,
MARTIE T.
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