Happy birthday to me

Well I am officially 35 years old today.  It hit me that the life expectancy of a cfer is 37.  Celebrating just doesnt feel like celebrating when you think like that.  I also thought about our life here and how much i love it. I have everything i need here and that is my husband and my two girls, the roof over our heads and food in the refrigerator.  I got it all.  How do you put a price on that.  My husband keeps asking what do you want, what can i get you?  What he doesn't realize is he has given me so much.  He has given me him, our girls, his heart, and he has let me stay at home with them.  He has given me all of that and he is asking me what i want.  Maybe I need to ask him what he wants?  Maybe not he is a guy.  That might end up bad for me.  lol

In a little over an hour, i will be going with my sister for her second mammogram.  They found a spot on her left breast and they want to take a closer look at it.  I feel in my heart that she is like me and we drink tons of caffeine.  I feel it has something to do with that.  I have been thinking about her a lot the last two days b/c i can tell she is stressed out.. God has this in his hands and whatever the outcome, he will take care of her.  It makes you think about so much.  I started thinking about my nephews, my sisters love for them, her scaredness when it comes to anything medical, blood or needles.  It made me think about the comment she made the other day before we found out about her first mammogram.  she said i want to walk in one of those walks.  I told her 1 in 8 women have breast cancer and i named off 8 women.  Why did we talk about that?  what made us do that?  When you are scared, you think about everything.  I have so much worry in my own family but I am worried for her.  I know god has this in his hands and I know everything will be fine.  It is very scary.  So everyone pray that today there is no lump or anything..

My babies are doing better. Thank you god for that.  Picc line is out of trinity and she seems to be feeling 100 % better and pyper is doing great other than wheezing on occasion with her asthma.  Keep us in your prayers that all the bacteria is gone from both my babies.  We are homebound until March from school.  Thank you god b/c the germs around gaston county are crazy right now.  Stomach bugs, flu, virus, pneumonia, etc.etc.etc.  I am glad to have mine home with me and keeping them away from as much as possible. 

I thank everyone for all my birthday wishes I have received.  It makes me feel loved in so many ways.  A birthday to me is just another day.. After 21 you seem to not want to have anymore.  35 years old.  omg, 5 more years until the big 40.  I pray I feel about it like I have the last 14, another day.  lol. 

Old, and grey hair but still can run circles around all the 20 year olds out there.  lol

Martie "35" Turner