YOU COMPLETE ME

THE LAST WEEK HAS BEEN A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS.  FIRST TRINS ASK ME IF SHE IS GOING TO DIE EARLY, AND THEN PYPER'S BLOOD SUGAR YESTERDAY WAS 472 ON HER BLOOD WORK.  MY BABIES DON'T DESERVE ANY OF THIS.  A CHILD SHOULD BE ABLE TO LIVE, RUN, PLAY AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING.  THE PARENTS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE THE ONES WHO HAVE PROBLEMS, NOT MY BABIES. 

GOD, WE NEED TO TALK AGAIN.  I KNOW YOU WANTED ME TO BE THESE GIRLS MOTHER.  GOD, MY GIRLS ARE MY WORLD. THEY ARE THE LOVES OF MY LIFE.  GOD, THEY SAY YOU DON'T GIVE ANYONE MORE THAN THEY CAN HANDLE.  I CAN HANDLE A LOT.  GIVE ME THE PROBLEMS, GIVE ME THE PNEUMONIA, THE BLOOD SUGAR OF 472, THE WORRIES, THE ENZYMES, ETC.ETC.ETC.  I CAN DO IT.  I KNOW MY TWO GIRLS ARE TOUGHER THAN NAILS.  THESE TWO BABIES OF MINE ARE FIGHTERS.  THEY GET IT HONEST B/C I AM THAT WAY.  GOD, I NEED YOU.  MY GIRLS NEED YOU, MY HUBBY NEEDS YOU.. WATCH OVER THIS FAMILY AND GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING, PLEASE GIVE THOSE THE WISDOM THEY NEED TO CURE THIS DISEASE--CF.....

HOW MANY OF YOU CAN SAY YOU HAVE AN UNBELIEVABLE HUSBAND.  WE MAY ARGUE, FIGHT, SCREAM AT EACH OTHER FROM TIME TO TIME. I WATCHED MY HUBBY YESTERDAY AFTER THE DOCTOR CALLED ABOUT PYPER'S BLOOD SUGAR, PUT HIS HANDS OVER HIS FACE, AND I KNOW HE WAS PRAYING.  WHEN I CHECKED HER SUGAR AT THAT TIME, IT WAS 262.  HE GOT UP WALKED OUTSIDE AND TRINITY SAID HE LAYED ON THE PORCH AND CRIED.  A GROWN MAN CRYING OVER HIS GIRLS.  THAT MAN IS MY ROCK.. HE ALWAYS TRIES TO BE SO STRONG.  I ASK HIM YESTERDAY IS HE READY TO RUN. HE SAID NO!!!!  I LOVE THAT MAN MORE THAN ANYTHING.  THANK YOU GREG FOR BEING YOU AND FOR TAKING CARE OF US.. YOU HAVE SO MUCH ON YOU AND I DON'T KNOW IF I TELL YOU ENOUGH, BUT THANK YOU...

THE TURNER'S ARE GOING TO BE FINE. THE DEVIL BETTER BACK OFF MY FAMILY. LEAVE MY GIRLS ALONE. THIS IS ONE MOTHER HE DOESNT WANT TO GO UP AGAINST.. I WILL KICK HIS ASS!!!!! SORRY TO BE BLUNT, BUT BLUNT IS ME..  RIGHT NOW I AM LAYING IN BED WITH PYPER AND MY TRINS IS AT SCHOOL.  YESTERDAY AFTER WE FOUND OUT ABOUT PYPER'S BLOOD SUGAR, ME BEING A CRAZY MOM, MADE HER SLEEP WITH ME.  I WAS DOING SO GOOD, NOW HERE I GO BACKING  UP. I PRAYED OVER HER, I PRAYED OVER HER THIS AM, AND HER BLOOD SUGAR WAS 101.  THAT IS GOOD, BUT I AM STILL SO WORRIED.  IS HER PANCREAS ALREADY BEING AFFECTED B/C THE CF.  NO, IT ISNT.  THIS MOM SAID NO... 

THIS IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.  THESE THREE PEOPLE IN THIS PICTURE.  IF THEY ONLY NEW HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM.  GOD, WATCH OVER THEM AND TAKE CARE OF THIS FAMILY.  GOD IF WE NEED TO LOSE EVERYTHING WE HAVE OTHER THAN OUR HOUSE TO TAKE CARE OF THIS FAMILY.  THEN SO BE IT.. GOD, I AM SUPPOSE TO BE AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS AND I AM SUPPOSE TO BE AT HOME TO TAKE CARE OF MY HUBBY.  CARS, AND CREDIT CARDS, ETC. CAN ALL BE REPLACED BUT THESE 3 CAN  NOT BE.. CREDIT CAN BE REBUILT.  I TOLD GREG YESTERDAY, IF SOMETHING ELSE IS WRONG WITH ONE OF MY BABIES, I AM WALKING AWAY FROM IT ALL-MEANING DEBT.  I TOLD HIM, OUR GIRLS COME FIRST.. HE AGREED.. I LOVE YOU GREG TURNER, AND TRINITY AND PYPER, I AM SO SORRY YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS.  I LOVE YOU GIRLS MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF.  MY BABIES- TRINIBINI AND PNUT- YOU TWO AND YOUR DADDY MAKE ME COMPLETE.  AS THE JERRY MCGUIRE MOVIE GOES- YOU COMPLETE ME!!!!!!