WE FIGHT AND WE LOVE HARD!!!

I HAVE COME TO REALIZE IN THE LAST FEW WEEKS, WHAT MEANS THE MOST TO ME-----MY HUBBY, AND MY GIRLS.  I HAVE ALSO COME TO REALIZE THAT PEOPLE COME AND GO....  OUR GIRLS ARE DOING PRETTY GOOD.  TRINITY IS HAVING SOME ROUGH TIMES WITH SCHOOL, CRYING SPELLS, COUGHS.  WELCOME BACK SCHOOL YEAR!!! 

I HAVE SEEN WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE PUT CF SUCKS.  YES IT DOES, BUT REALLY LETS THINK ABOUT THIS-WHY WOULD YOU PUT THAT.  THIS IS SOMETHING MY TWO BABIES HAVE TO LIVE WITH EVERYDAY AND I WANT THEM TO THINK THAT THEY ARE AS NORMAL AS THEY CAN BE WITH A FEW EXCEPTIONS.  SO THINK BEFORE YOU PUT THAT.  DO YOU WANT YOUR KIDS TO READ THAT?  WHAT IF  THEY LOOK AT YOU AND SAY MOM, WHY DO YOU PUT THAT?  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? 

ALSO, HERE LATELY, GREG AND I HAVE HAD TO QUESTION OUR CLOSEST PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES.  DO THEY REALLY CARE ABOUT US OR WERE WE THERE TO BE A DOOR MAT FOR THEM TO RUN OVER US.  CAN I JUST SAY, WHEN I LOVE, OR WHEN I AM A FRIEND, I USUALLY DO THAT WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME.  THERE ARE TIMES I MAY NOT BE THERE AT EVERY FUNCTION, BUT IF YOU CALL ME, I AM GOING TO MAKE SURE I AM THERE FOR YOU.  SOMETIMES, I MAY SAY THINGS TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS, BUT KNOW WHEN I SAY THINGS, I AM DOING IT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD.  DO I STILL LOVE YOU, YES I DO!!!  AM I TRYING TO GET PAST THE WAY I FEEL, YES I AM.  IT IS HARD. 

GREG AND I ARE ALSO TRYING TO DO THINGS TO MAKE SURE I CAN STAY AT HOME WITH OUR GIRLS FOR 2 MORE YEARS UNTIL PYPER STARTS SCHOOL.  GREG AND I HAVE PUT ALL OUR FAITH IN THE LORD, AND PRAYING HE WILL PROVIDE WHAT WE NEED TO KEEP ME HOME.  WE MAY NOT GO TO CHURCH EVERYDAY BUT DOES THAT MAKE ME A BAD PERSON.  NO IT DOESNT.  I BELIEVE WITH ALL MY HEART IN THE LORD GOD ALMIGHT.  HE HAS TAKEN CARE OF MY GIRLS.  I AM NOT GOING TO THROW IT IN YOUR FACE, BUT I DO BELIEVE. 

ALSO I AM VERY PROUD OF MY SISTER, WHO IS GOING TO COLLEGE TO GET HER TEACHING DEGREE. SHE IS DOING GREAT.  I KNOW THIS IS A BLOG FOR ME AND MY GIRLS, BUT I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM SO PROUD OF HER.  NOT MUCH LONGER SHANNON.  KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.  I DON'T TALK TO MY BROTHER REALLY AT ALL.  I LOVE HIM, BUT WE JUST DON'T SPEAK.  HE IS BUILDING A HOUSE WITH HIS NEW WIFE AND I AM HAPPY FOR HIM.  I HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY, THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY FROM TIME TO TIME.  MY MOM, LORD BLESS HER. SHE IS A MANIAC.  SHE IS THE BEST MOM AND GRANDMA EVER, SHE WOULD WALK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FOR HER KIDS.  THAT IS WHAT MAKES HER THE BEST.  SHE FEELS SHE IS NOT.  MY DAD AND STEP MOM ARE AMAZING TOO.  I ALWAYS REMEMBER GROWING UP AND BEING DADDYS GIRL.  WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH DIABETES, HE WAS SO UPSET. IT KILLED MY DADDY.  BUT DADDY LOOK AT ME NOW.  I AM A WONDERFUL MOTHER, TO TWO OF THE MOST AMAZING LITTLE GIRLS IN THE WORLD.  DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, I AM GOING TO BE FINE.  I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING HUSBAND IN THE WORLD.  HE HAS A GOOD FAMILY, WHO IF WE NEED THEM THEY ARE HERE TO.  MY HUBBY IS MY ROCK, IF I AM DOWN OR CRYING, HE IS RIGHT THERE TO PICK ME UP.  WE DO EVERYTHING TOGETHER.  IF I COOK, HE CLEANS, I CLEAN THE INSIDE, HE TAKES THE OUTSIDE.  WE TAG TEAM EVERYTHING.  THANK YOU GG, FOR BEING THE MOST AMAZING MAN AND FATHER.  NO ONE REALIZES WHAT ALL HE HAS DONE FOR THIS FAMILY AND WHAT ALL HE HAS GIVEN UP FOR US.  I DO AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FOR THAT AND FOR THE MAN HE IS.  AMAZING!!!!!!  ONE DAY I WILL HOPEFULLY BE ABLE TO REPAY YOU FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR US.  MAYBE ONE DAY YOU CAN STAY AT HOME AND JUST RELAX WHILE BOTH GIRLS ARE IN SCHOOL. 

GETTING READY TO WATCH DANCING WITH THE STARS.  SO I AM GOING TO GO FOR NOW.  SORRY MY BLOG WAS ABOUT ME AND MY FAMILY.  MY GIRLS ARE DOING GREAT AND THAT IS THE WAY IT IS GOING TO CONTINUE.  WE FIGHT AND WE LOVE HARD.  CF WILL STAND FOR CURE FOUND!!!!!