Over the last week with doing a newspaper article for mothers day and for my girls, and going to church and the preacher preaching on marriage, has made me realize I am exactly were god wants me. I know a lot of people question what gods plan is for them and I do not.
I told my husband yesterday, Think about something: I had two uterus and when a women has that, it is very hard to get pregnant and it is hard to carry a baby with that. The chances of having two uterus are 1 in a million. Lucky me.. lol. Well, i got pregnant not once, but twice with no problems. I also have type 1 diabetes which makes it hard to carry a baby to full term b/c the chances of a baby dying. I didnt carry my girls full term but they were close. After having both my girls and then having a hysterectomy, the doctor told me that one of my fallopian tubes wasnt attached to anything. It was just there. Unbelievably. I remember sitting in his office after my hysterectomy for a follow up and I looked at him and said, so what you are telling me is I probably shouldn't have been able to have kids or even get pregnant. He said, well miracles happen and that you are. Your girls are your miracles. At that time, I didn't take that comment to heart. I just smiled b/c I beat the odds. As our lives have went on and me being home with our girls and taking care of them with their Cystic Fibrosis, I have thought a lot about what was gods plan.
Can, I just say: Dont ever question him. If I think about what problems I had with my body and my girls health problems, I shouldn't be a mom. I shouldn't be a stay at home mom. God's plan was right on the money b/c he knew I would do whatever had to be done for my girls. God placed the right man in my path, and we together made two amazing little girls. Medically they probably shouldn't be here but god had other plans. I know now more than anything in my life that I am suppose to be the mother I am, I am suppose to have two little girls who are such fighters and fight Cystic Fibrosis so hard, I am suppose to be the wife of an amazing man. God's plan is amazing. Sometimes you don't see it at first and you ask why god, why my girls, why us. Boy, that was the wrong question to ask. Now if i could see god, I would tell him: thank u god, thank u god for my two miracles, thank u for placing them in my life and for making me their mommy. Thank u for trusting me and my husband to do the right things when it came to them. Thank u.. A lot of people probably think, why are you thanking him for your girls being sick. I will tell you why b/c whatever time I have with them and whatever time they have with me, is a blessing. God made me a damn good mother and a fighter for my girls. He made me love with everything I have in me, and I do everyday.
Don't take for granted what you have in front of you b/c your life could change at the drop of a hat. The road we have traveled has been a hard one but I wouldn't change it with anyone for anything. My road is the road god wanted me to travel. I know I let him down everyday but I try my hardest to do what is right. I fail miserably sometimes and I pass greatly sometimes. I just pray he stays with me and keeps showing me his plan. My plan has been the greatest gift I have ever seen. I can't wait to see what else is in store for our little family.
I love my husband and my girls to the moon and back. Think about your life for one second. Think about things you thought you wanted to happen and didn't. Maybe if you sit down and really ponder it, you will see gods grace in it all. God sure did the right thing when he placed an amazing man in my path, and two beautiful little girls in my belly. He gave me the best gift possible. That gift is love. I am the lucky one. A lot may say oh poor martie and her family. Don't say that.. I am the lucky one, I HAVE IT ALL!!!! Thank you god for my husband, my two miracles, your love and the road you have sent me down. This road has been amazing and i would do it over and over again. Thank you so much. I am the lucky one...
A mothers love,
Martie
