ON ANOTHER NOTE: HERE LATELY I HAVE BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT WORKING. SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT. DO I FEEL I SHOULD: NO BUT WHEN I THINK ABOUT MY HUSBAND AND HOW HARD HE WORKS AND MY FAMILY AND GREG'S FAMILY AND ALL THEIR SUPPORT--IT BOTHERS ME. ALL I WANT IS FOR US TO BE OK IN EVERYWAY POSSIBLE. I KEEP FEELING LIKE WE ARE TREADING WATER AND ABOUT TO SINK AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY? MAYBE ITS BECAUSE WE GOT IN SO DEEP, NOW WE HAVE TO FIGHT TO GET OUT. I FEEL SO BAD B/C MY HUSBAND WORKS ALL DAY AND I AM COUPED UP IN THE HOUSE AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS GET OUT AND SHOP OR JUST DO SOMETHING FUN. I FEEL BAD B/C OF THAT. THAT IS THE WOMAN IN ME AND WE CANT DO THAT. WHEN WILL OUR LIFE BE OK AGAIN. I KNOW OUR LIFE IS GREAT, AND MY GIRLS ARE GREAT BUT HAVING LESS STRESS WOULD BE FABULOUS.
WE GO TO THE CF DOCTOR THIS WEEK AND I PRAY FOR GREAT RESULTS. MY OLDEST WILL BE IN 4TH GRADE THIS YEAR. BEFORE I KNOW IT, SHE WILL BE IN MIDDLE SCHOOL AND THAT KILLS ME. MY BABY WILL START NEXT YEAR AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT, IT MAKES ME SICK. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? BEING A MOM IS WHAT I DO BEST. WHO WILL I HAVE TO HANG OUT WITH ALL DAY, WHO WILL I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF, WHAT WILL I DO WITH MYSELF. YES, I KNOW, GO TO WORK.. THAT IS ALL I KEEP HEARING. PUT PYPER IN PRESCHOOL, GO TO WORK.. DOES ANYONE REALIZE HOW GREAT OUR GIRLS HAVE DONE.. IT IS BECAUSE WE DO EVERYTHING IN OUR POWER TO MAKE THEM SAFE, HAPPY AND AS HEALTHY AS POSSILBE.
TODAY IN CHURCH: MY OLDEST SAID SHE LEARNED THAT GOD COMES FIRST. I SAID THAT IS RIGHT HONEY. EVERYBODY SAYS IF YOU DO FOR GOD, HE WILL DO FOR YOU. GIVE IT ALL TO HIM. I AM TRYING AND IT IS SO HARD. I ALWAYS DO FOR MY FAMILY. I TRY TO GIVE THE GIRLS THE WORLD, TAKE CARE OF THE HOUSE, THE FOOD, EVERYTHING IN THIS HOUSE FOR MY HUBBY.. GIVING MY GIRLS EVERYTHING I KNOW IS NOT WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSE TO DO AND THEY DONT GET EVERYTHING...
I KNOW MY BLOGS DONT MAKE MUCH SENSE B /C WHEN I START TYPING, I JUST TYPE WHATEVER I FEEL. LOL. WHAT I FEEL RIGHT NOW IS I LOVE MY FAMILY. I LOVE YOU GREG TURNER, TRINITY AND PYPER MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. I KNOW I AM NOT PERFECT AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO CHANGE ABOUT MYSELF BUT STAY WITH ME AND LOVE ME... MY HUBBY IS THE GREATEST... MAN, FATHER AND PROVIDER AND FOR THAT I COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING MORE. THANK YOU GOD ONCE AGAIN FOR WHAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME. STAY WITH US AND PLEASE GIVE THOSE THE WISDOM TO CURE THIS DISEASE. AMEN.
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